Friday, October 25, 2013
I used to have a huge fear of going to the gym. I pictured muscle heads and very fit, glamorous folks in them and here I was morbidly obese trying to go to the gym. So I always, always felt intimidated.
But then I joined a very quiet little quaint one a few years ago. Nothing but old people and a few muscle heads. No one trying to tell me I am doing an exercise wrong or questioning what I was doing. And this satisfied me for a while. But this gym got boring. It only had treadmills, a few step machines and ellipticals as well as the weights.
I wanted a more glamorous gym! Haha. One with classes and much more machines and fun stuff. So I joined a larger chain one.
However, here I was, stuck in intimidation land again. There were DEFINITELY muscle heads, and super fit people here, and big scary machines that I felt would be too embarrassed to get on. And a vey buff, and kinda cute personal trainer guy who keeps giving me the eye. (I think he wants to give me some fitness advice, which is exactly what I dont want...lol)
So this new gym is scary, and I almost want to change my mind and go back to my boring one. I havent yet though. Everyday, I still go in there, and I am apprehensive about the overly fit folks and buff people. But this gym has out of shapers like me, and OLD PEOPLE too!
I still havent decided to join a class yet, I will one day, but, I am super proud of myself. I have been eyeing the STEPMILL for about a month now, dying to try it. However, I have this immense fear that I wont be able to get on it because I have to step up high to get on it. And then, because it keeps going and going, I am so afraid that my clumsy self will just trip and fall right off of it.
Yesterday, yesterday though, I just said screw it and hopped on that bad boy. Low and behold I love it. Its my new machine now, my new obsession and I cant wait to get on it today!!! Its definitely a killer though. That is what I like about it.
Conquering fears, its not so terrible. One day, one day though, I shall try those gym classes.
Conquer some new fears people!! Its awesome.