Friday, October 25, 2013
Today I was released off hopital. They actually wanted to "kick" me out yesterday night after I just had awoken from my narcotic. Luckly I could stay. I was really done. I even cried. I guess I cried as I realised noone took personla care of me. My husband tried to ignore the fact of my operation the entire week.
It's my fault too. I did not tell anybody about my upcoming operation. Only Ulli - and she ain't seem to care at all. Today I chated with Judy and told her. She in returned told me she tried killing herself two weeks ago. Now I wished I had engaging and loyal friends who care, but somehow it seems I cannot be one of such friends myself for others. I cannot even treat me decently.
So I told Judy that she is in a situation that costs her a lot of strength and that it would be to her benefit to find a path that would more suit her. she just said my words were unkind. I don't know how to handle it. I thought my words were fair.
Now I am in pain, still weak and feel like without a hold.
I am soooo sad!!!! I wished someone came resueing me.