Friday, October 25, 2013
Well I've been on this journey since 2008. I've lost weight and have kept it off. I have to say though they never tell you about having to buy new clothes. They never tell you how happy and emotionally moved you will be when you put on a pants and find that they are about two sizes to BIG!
First you stand there looking down not believing that the pants are to big. Then you look in the mirror and realize you look like you are confused about your pants size. Not in a bad way. They are not to small but way to big! Then you look at your kid, who is 17, and ask "is it to bad"? I don't know about yours but mine said "no Mom, actually I think you should wear it and show off how much weight you have lost. Just tie the tie tighter so they stay up though." I could have kissed her at that moment. It was exactly what I needed. You have to understand that she has ADHD and doesn't use any of her filters when talking with me. She never says things to make me "feel good". She just says it like it is for her.
I still can't believe that I've kept off all the weight. Even after major back surgery. I haven't had a hard time of it and I have no reason why. The only thing I can think of is that I am ready to lose the weight at this time. I'm not trying to lose more right now as I am healing but I will work on it again in a couple more months.
The other thing they don't tell you about is the skin. The saggy, baggy skin. Drooping all over you. So I can't wait to finish losing the weight so I can work on getting the excess skin off! Then my body will feel better and my clothes will fit better.
Another thing is the pictures. Looking at the pictures of you almost 100 pounds heavier and working at trying to remember what it was like. What were you thinking? What were you feeling? When did you decide to let yourself get that large? Looking at those pictures for me gives me more desire to lose the last 20 pounds so I will have lost 100 pounds in the end. After the skin is off it will be more but I won't know how much until it is done. Just be ready for the emotions to flood you when looking at the pictures.
Most people just look forward. I like to look back as well to remember where I have come from and acknowledge how far I have come. It is a positive thing for me personally. It is my accomplishment. It is what I have chosen to do and to continue to do. It is my personal choice.
So as you continue to work on your own journey just be ready for some of the above and don't be surprised by it.