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Thursday, October 24, 2013

Yesterday I started my day as usual lately. Got up early, did my sparking, had my coffee, tortured my cats. I prepared all my juice and smoothies, packed up the car for work and drove down the street to the mall to do my one lap and hopefully and naturally get under the 13:13 time.

I actually cracked a gentle smile while walking. This program is going to work. I was enjoying this slow pace and it was paying off in many ways. And I wasn't crashing myself into any walls and NO speed bumps. Ahhhh a turtle's life is wondrous!

If you ever want to see how life can serve up the unexpected just start your own business! My first client was out of town and sent a text stating she forgot to leave me a check. Unfortunately this is S.O.P. for her. Ya have to accept it. Her DD was home with a badly tweaked neck injury--no problem she's a jewel. So I got the job done.

My 2nd client of the day went well. My 3rd client was my BF in Boise, Jen and her DH, my Boise doctor. They were home the final part of my cleaning and Jen and I talked about cleaning the clinic. My feeling is to take on the job. We are meeting Friday at the Clinic to see first hand, with a list, what it would entail. We did settle on a schedule so that part is done.

So, what is all the sad turtle about? The last couple of days I have been covertly sabotaging myself. How you ask? Not enough calories! I know that consistently going under my calories is another road to danger. Danger to me in this area means cravings. Cravings trigger unhealthy food choices. Unhealthy food choices means "see food, eat it!". This means going off program and that is the main problem that has gotten me where I'm at in my insulin resistance.

No need to go into the wretched details of what I ate yesterday. My doc called me after I submitted the last 4 food reports. He went through them as he always does and tweaks them or praises me. He sat me on my rump and told me how silly he had been with the construction of my 64 week program. He said we didn't start far enough back in what I need to handle first: Maintaining my raw food program consistently. You guessed it: no going off program for 16 weeks!!!!

Yep, I've been on again and off again since going on vacation a year ago September. And boy did I go off program then! Whew Wee! Not just a little bit but a lot of everything. With my "food" sensitivities I can't do this without jeopardizing my health.

So, this is why I am a very sad turtle right now

My 1st stage 16 week program allows 10 minutes each morning for some type of body modality video, seated or standing. And, above all else I STAY ON PROGRAM with my food. No mall walk. No additional exercise besides what I noted above and my work.

So, I start on Sunday. I know this is an issue with me. I have a lot of "friends" who tempt me. I am in a lot of homes throughout the week. One of my major clients are gourmet cooks! And, the holidays are starting up. Actually this isn't that hard for me. But, still, I feel a bit alone and apart of the festivities of gorging going on all around.

So, that's the low down today SparkFriends and visitors of my blogs. I wish I could be more upbeat right now. I know I'll snap (no, not as in snapping turtle) out of it and realize the wisdom that is given to me by my doctor. I just need to sit and stew for awhile.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

BRENDA_G50 10/27/2013 10:13AM

    I believe you'll make it through this. It's ok to "sit and stew" for a while, as long as you are taking the steps needed to get you back to where you should be. After all, slow and steady wins the race. Wishing you the best. emoticon

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_VALEO_ 10/26/2013 5:47PM

    Oh, I didn't like seeing a sad pic of the turtle at the start. emoticon

What a great GP you have! I understand how hard it was on you to change your plans, but I am sure you'll realize soon that it is for the better.

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THE70SNUT 10/24/2013 9:50PM

    It's so very hard to have been so far along, sabotage yourself and when you restart have to go so slow. I spend forever not working out for 20 minutes, cause I feel like that's a joke. If I can't do an hour, I don't do any. Who am I hurting??????? Just me!!!! I know you can do it. You're not where you wanna be, but you know how to keep putting one foot in front of the other!!! You are doing fantastic my friend.


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ALEXSGIRL1 10/24/2013 5:57PM

    bring what you can to the parties etc. sip away on a smoothie think this drink is for me it will make stronger happier healthier what they have will make me sick week and blah. Stew for a while and then come out swinging. hugs

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BARBANNA 10/24/2013 5:40PM

    emoticon Sad situation but it could be much worse! Just buck up and get with the program! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PGHP31CK 10/24/2013 11:54AM

    You CAN do this! You've got great support with your doctor monitoring your food, you know what you need to do, you're aware of potential bumps ahead in your path, and you've got us cheering you on!


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TURTLETALK 10/24/2013 10:38AM

    Hang in there, you know you will feel better both physically and emotionally when you stay with the program. emoticon

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EMILY0724 10/24/2013 9:56AM

    I'm not sure what your physical illness is, but it sounds like you have a great doctor who takes care of you in many ways. I hope you become more at peace with your circumstances. You have many sparkfriends to lean on!

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LJCANNON 10/24/2013 9:26AM

    emoticon Sending Turtle Hugs from One Turtle to another. "Sitting and Stewing" is an Important Part of a Successful Plan, I think. After that, Stand Up, Join Hands with your Fellow Spark Turtles, and we will March On To Success!!

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RHYMESWITHBABY 10/24/2013 9:20AM

    Is there a tea you can drink, or just your smoothies? If I can sit and socialize with a hot drink, I find it easier to smile at the treats and then ignore them while sipping and chatting. Understanding people won't push food on you. Of course, food pushers require a different strategy, but there's already plenty written about how to handle that elsewhere.

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SLIMMERJESSE 10/24/2013 9:15AM

    Nice blog. Good luck with your new business.

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WATERONE 10/24/2013 9:09AM

    emoticon So sorry about the change but emoticon because it is for your health and well being. We are here to support you and to cheer you on. Yes, this is a very hard time to be doing this.

What about making a card to carry in your purse or even your pocket during each day that you can pull out and read when you are tempted. Just short phrases reminding you why you are doing this.

Better Health

Fitter Body

I am Strong


Put on whatever sparks you.


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SHAKESALOT 10/24/2013 8:22AM

    You are way ahead of the game by recognizing what you need to do. You can do this!! No more tears, unless for happiness.

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MADEIT3 10/24/2013 8:21AM

    Oh my!! The only piece I can offer you is what I ended up doing at work where there is food temptation every moment of the day. I sail on by the donuts, candy, cookies, dips and chip, and so on, and say to myself "They are SAD and I am not." SAD you know being the acronym for Standard American Diet. About a year and a half ago I went on a 600 calorie per day diet - yes, I know folks believe that to be too little - but my goal was to get off metformin, which I'd been taking for about 7 years and which I believed was destroying my kidneys. I stayed on 600 calories a day for 8 months before starting to transition back to something more approaching normalcy. And I did succeed in getting off metformin! BTW, I also didn't do any exercise other than general "walking around."

I quickly found that I get into a mindset that let me feel - no other word for it - superior to folks who have to eat. I called it "anorexic mind" since I'm sure there was something not quite sane about it. But it got me through those 8 months.

So you're a FITRAWTURTLE and that makes you significantly different from the norm. I wonder if you can come up with - or stumble into - a mindset that let's you do this and feel good most of the time.

I'm with you!!

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ANASONIC 10/24/2013 8:08AM

    You can do this! You are strong and dedicated in all the other parts of your life. Do it for you, be the client this time around. emoticon

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