Wednesday, October 23, 2013
I had no idea it had been as long between posts as it's been. I've been trying to keep my head together, above water, and for the most part HAVE been doing alright. There have been bumps and bruises of life, but nothing to dynamic, really. Just the day to day survival mode struggle.
Today, I got to slow down more. I got to accept help. I get to adjust a touch.
My husband was off work again today. He had a partial day on Monday, and didn't even have a voice earlier this morning. He whistled goodbye to both kids.
I was feeling exhausted enough that I told T to get in the car as I took H down the hill to her school. Her school starts about 45 minutes before his. His school is about a 20 minute drive and hers is less than 10. I knew I couldn't handle driving back up the hill, even just 10 minutes, THEN starting towards his school. By the time we got TO his school, though, I felt like my chest was collapsing in. Couldn't breathe in or out, but my breath itself felt fine. The school nurse listened to my lungs and said I sounded clear. My cough sounded more upper respiratory to her...but how long had it been since I had my pertussis vaccine. (Ah, the things they think of!) I called one of my offices, and they were able to work me in within an hour. Another mom from the school took me over there. Okay. She's not just another mom. She lets me teach at her piano store too.
After waiting for a short time, then updated the new-to-me person on what I've been taking and how I'm doing overall, the upshot is the steroids I've been avoiding are now prescribed again. Dang it. I took the dose about two hours ago and am starting to feel like I can breathe in and out again. So frustrating!
In the good news category - before we got to his school, I had checked in with a friend who lives "near" T's school about going over to rest at her house. They were home. Because I took so long getting back with her, she called to check in on me. While waiting for my ride to come back, I was able to reach another person who was able to help, THEN yet another person walked in the building and had time to take me back to T's school. Although I was frustrated, in lack-of-air agony, and felt completely out of control, I also felt pretty supported. I was even able to arrange a ride home from school for T.
Overall, I'm frustrated that I let myself get sick, I'm grateful I have support in place, and I'm going to try to breathe more. I also have an appointment tomorrow with the allergy person to get the testing/immune system boosting going in the right direction. I've done what I can do for today!
Thanks for reading.