That about sums it up. It still feels utterly wrong to eat butter, full fat cream or cheese and use chicken with the skin on, but boy, I feel good, liberated and not craving. My portions size has decreased and not that I planned it that way, the fat I consume now just makes me full and keeps me full longer.
Last night I made pizza (and hands down I think it was the best pizza I have EVER made) yet after eating 1/8th of it and a salad I was full and did not want any more... I felt so utterly like not "me", i mean, the "me" I've known for so long was ALWAYS hungry and ONE piece of pizza would have NEVER ever satisfied her. Yet here I was, satisfied and full. We had a friend over for dinner as well and he brought a shop bought dessert and normally the smell of sugar gets me into the "Struggling and fighting against" mode, yet this time, nada... nothing... I didn't want it at all, so I didn't eat it, which was a very liberating feeling.
I still struggle a little though with grazing throughout the day, a nut here, a date there a bit of an apple just because. Especially today. Boy, I was THE domestic goddess, I tell ya (I know, "humility" is my middle name, joking).
Besides doing the shopping this morning I made 2 big batches of applesauce, started making apple pectin and apple cider vinegar from the peels, washed and cleaned, froze or blended 5kg of strawberries (some ended up as chia jam sweetened with raw honey, my new favourite sweetener), roasted marrow bones and made beef broth out of them, roasted my first ever chicken with it's skin on (it still felt so very wrong doing this)... ou, and I also dehydrated tomatoes and turned them into tomato powder as well as made some dried apple rings.... and even better I managed to get the kitchen (mostly) clean again after it rather resembled the remains of a battlefield.
I loved looking at my shopping this morning: no processed foods at all (ok, I bought some bacon which had some funny sounding ingredients.... hmmm). I also found cheap minced meat from grass-fed cows and I found a new (to me) shop in town with is absolutely adorable and sells all sorts of flours, grains, spices and the like... boy, I'm such a sucker for spices nowadays...
Yesterday I went through my pinterest boards and deleted many of my pins: sugar loaded things, white flour goods or recipes that use processed foods. And it felt good to make a clear cut. I kept a couple of recipes for special occasions or as ideas to healthify some time, yet most of those absolutely yummy looking photos I just removed. Right now I look at these delicious looking creations and don't even want to try them, yet I know that rough times WILL come and then those things will look good and tempting.