Wednesday, October 23, 2013
I weighed myself today and I weighed 138, meaning that I am only 8 pounds away from goal!! I did drink about 8oz of coffee before I weighed myself, so it may not be 100% accurate, but it's accurate enough.
In January, I was up to 155 pounds. This was before I was diagnosed with my autoimmune condition of my liver. It didn't matter what I did, even if I restricted down to 700 cals a day and exercised, I couldn't lose weight. Just looking at salt would pack on the water weight. It was awful, but I assume this is due in part to having early cirrhosis. I was really afraid because I was put on prednisone in order to calm the inflammation in my liver and most people pack on a lot of weight with that medication. My hepatologist had initially allowed me to try something different (budesonide) as most people don't gain any weight on that and with my history of eating disorders, I was afraid of weight gain triggering me. It was awesome that he understood that and worked with me, but not so awesome that my liver wouldn't respond to the meds and I had to try the prednisone. I was lucky though, as I actually began to LOSE weight while on the pred! I am thinking it's because my liver was finally able to start functioning properly and I wasn't on a high enough dose to get the munchies. My appetite was actually suppressed. I got severe anxiety which caused a whole different issue as I started grinding my teeth so badly, I actually broke one and we think I caused TMJ issues. I am still feeling the pain from that 6 months later even though I am now off the pred. But I am feeling so much better and I feel like I can finally do this! It was so discouraging when nothing that I did, absolutely nothing would work. I've had my thyroid tested in the past and it has always come back fine, though my doctor wants to test it again since I'm always super super cold. But I was just so confused as to why I couldn't lose weight and I'm convinced it has to do with my liver.
Getting down to 138 is so motivating for me. I had to buy new jeans this month because all of the jeans I owned were so big that even a belt couldn't hold them up. I felt like I was wearing dude jeans! I'm back in a size that I haven't been since before I was pregnant with my daughter! I'm really happy and while my husband is usually very fearful of me going on Sparkpeople since it has caused problems in the past with triggering my ED, he said this time around my mood has been so much better since I started back up. I think I came back with a different approach and that is helping a lot. I'm not restricting any food in particular, I'm not trying to beat my calories burned week to week. I'm trying little itty-bitty steps and things that I plan to maintain forever and it has been very helpful. I'm really happy right now