Here I am trying to keep my nutrition menu and I'm gaining weight! I go by what the menu says. But my body is not use to all this food. It is hard for me to eat it all. I feel like I'm constantly eating with these menus!
And, I'm use to eating a lot more vegetables and fruits which the menu doesn't have. I do modify the menu. Where it says butter I use vegan margarine for my fat...and other substitutions. Like, I cannot eat a whole sweet potato! no way! My stomach would burst! What to do?To get enough calories?
I'm not giving up! I will figure this out. I do not weigh myself everyday. I'm not a scale addict. I don't think weighing yourself everyday is beneficial emotionally because your weight can jump up and down with water weight and exercise.
As of today, in spite of two deaths in my family within two weeks, I'm still grieving. at first I ate emotionally, real bad. I downed a pint of vegan ice cream and ate a bag of potato chips! That is bad for me..
But I'm better now. It still hurts, but I have to keep on the horse and keep functioning. At first I couldn't. My grief was so bad.. I must move on even while it still hurts. I figure you can stay stuck as long as you choose, and it really is a 'choice.' So my choice is to stay motivated by Sparkpeople and friends, look for support, keep myself busy, exercise and read my Bible and pray. I feel pretty good today and am very grateful. I am grateful everyday. Things could always be so much worse, and for so many people they are. I am very blessed.
If I had to sit down and write out all my blessings, I would be writing until my last breath. And, there are so many blessings I am not even aware of! and not to mention the miracles that have happened in my life! for instance, I had a motorcycle accident in 1984. A woman made a left turn in front of me in a canyon. There was no place for me to go! On the right was a cliff with no end so to speak and on the left was a mountain. I had to hit her! This was during rush hour on a two lane road.
To make a long story short, (I'll try))
I hit her car at a 70mph impact! I knew I was going to die! (I had a near death experience.) I should have died. I had no helmet on. I slammed the pavement after several yards. I was in shock when I woke up. A friend told me all this. I had died. But I was brought back to life! My face should have been torn off because I landed face down. My head should have split open like a watermelon. I was in a full leg cast for a year and had a concussion. But I lived. A miracle for sure.. No one can tell me there is no GOD!