Tuesday, October 22, 2013
I am so beyond stressed it is unbelievable. I just feel like I'm being pulled in a hundred different directions at once, not really able to accomplish anything, and I feel like I'm disappointing people (and myself) in the process because I can't be everything for everyone. I have two jobs and everyone wants/needs me to be in top form and spectacular right now and I just CAN'T. Plus, I'm still so worried about Husband's injury. Worker's Comp is only paying 2/3 of his pay, so we're losing a few hundred dollars each month. We NEED that money. He still hasn't had his MRI yet. If he needs surgery, he will be out of work for a very long time. 95% of everything is placed on my shoulders right now. I honestly feel like crawling into a hole and just waiting for it all to go away on its own somehow. Obviously, that won't happen. I'm so tired. I'm so stressed. I'm thinking maybe it's time to start letting that second job (cleaning) go. I will wait to get the results of the MRI first. If it turns out that he needs surgery, I think I will just clean during the summer only, when I am out of school. I just don't know how much more I can take. I guess going back to school in January just isn't going to happen, either. There's no way I can add on one more thing. All I know for sure is that I am doing the very, very, very BEST that I can do.