when you look at it, in digital color photo!!
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Going thru and cleaning out some old emails, I found a pic I had taken on Jan 7th of this year.
One day before I broke my foot. A pic of my feet, standing on the scale. My toes were quite gold sparkly, lol. As the day before that I had a pedicure.
So, as of today, a full 9 months later and I am up 9 pounds. I guess when you look at it in those terms, one pound per month, it isnt all that bad.
Even though, it should be many many pounds lower. I should have, and had hoped to, been down something like 30 or 40 pounds by now.
But its a new day.
Finding that pic gave me hope.
I realize that I havent gained an outrageous amount of weight and there is time to catch back up.
I might be close to a year later, and I have blogged before about how 2013 has been one of the worst years of my life.
There is time to catch back up. I think I should be able to lose that 9lbs and 1 more and get myself right back where I left off.
My goal is to lose this 10 lbs by the end of this year and go into 2014 with a whole new weight and a whole new hopeful outlook on life.
Yes, I know I should be able to lose this much sooner. If I could only get back to the way I was losing weight before 1 to 2 lbs a week, I would be able to lose that 10 and maybe another 10 before the goal date.
But realistically, I havent been losing any weight at all, so to set the goal any higher would surely be asking for failure.
I dont know what was going on in my life during this weight loss period that I am doing all that much differently.
Maybe it was just a much less stressful period in my life, maybe I had a higher metabolism, maybe I was just more focused.
I will admit my focus has waned in these months. But its always been right under the surface, and I am not eating that many more calories per day.
Less alcohol is in my diet now, almost none at all.
I sure am not walking as much, and as the days grow wetter and colder I know I will walk even less.
But I am not going to stop trying.
I just really hope that 2014 comes in like a lion, wild and bold and ready to conquer this!!!
I am ready to get back on that scale and take pics of much lower numbers.
This is really difficult to see the long term when I say the numbers out loud, but as of right now, my goal is still a good 80 lbs off.
I become angry when I sit and think that as of right now I am still eligible for lap band surgery.
I have such a long hard journey ahead of me, and I am not giving up.
I will settle for this to take me another 2, even 3 years if necessary.
But as of today I am just going to focus on the next 2 months and the next 10 pounds.
It is cold and dreary here and we are looking at some possible wet snow flakes in the higher elevations here.
I have seen it this cold and even snowing on Halloween, for example last year on Halloween, we buried Honeys mom.
And it had snowed so much the 2 or 3 days after she passed, that the grave diggers had to tram the backhoe up the hill to the cemetery to dig her grave, as their truck wouldnt go up the hill in the snow.
I will never forget November 1st if I live to be 109!!!
I went walking the day she was buried, Halloween day and it was so snowy and cold I had to wear a hoodie and gloves and a scarf and boggan and the next day, November 1st.
I went out walking in my regular tshirt and walking pants, the weather warmed up that much overnight.
Today I made a big pot of homemade veggie laden chili, I added carrots, celery, mushrooms, onion, green and red bell peppers. Along with my regular chili mixings. Good hearty and hot on this cold fall night.
Time to get my housework done for the evening and get ready to watch the Biggest Loser!!!