Tuesday, October 22, 2013
WELL - we are at week 4 in the BLC - and I am going to reflect a bit on what I've been doing, but also what I NEED to do differently moving into week 5.
Last week was actually one of my better weeks, as far as participation, and effort given. Although I'm not at "peak" effort, I have made an actual effort to take part in all challenges that are being issued. That's a big deal, considering how busy and overwhelmed I have been feeling the last 2 months.
I even went so far as to make a PLAN for what to do over the weekend. I ended up needing to travel 10 hours to go to a weekend long clinic, and then 10 more hours to get home. That is overwhelming to me in and of itself, especially considering the food aspect. Fortunately, I really sat down and thought it out - even figuring restaurants that I could eat at, and what I would order when I got there! I made sure I packed plenty of water, and had healthy snacks I packed so I had NO excuses to stop at gas stations to get something (read: ANYTHING!) to eat.
I also would have NEVER exercised - especially with how tired I was and given the fact that I was in the car for so long, and sitting in clinics for so long (although I was pleasantly surprised to find out that it was a "hands on" clinic, so I didn't have to SIT all day! I was moving!), but I forced myself to do SOMETHING. Even if I didn't feel like it. I even "allowed" myself 10 minutes. JUST TO DO SOMETHING. It actually worked. I don't know if I could convince myself this would be "okay" for the long term (I've tried, and failed) but I am going to start.
One thing that's been helping is logging my steps. Some days I'm so horribly surprised at how LITTLE steps I am actually taking. It's been an eye opener. It's also encouraging me to move more!
I feel in my heart of hearts that I'm not "contributing" like I should - I want to be ACTIVE, and chat, and win all the awards (or at least be in the top 10) and, and, and.... That's all fine and good, but I also know that I allow myself too often to burn out. I am trying to rewire my brain to understand, I don't HAVE to do it ALL. I don't have to be the BEST. I just need to put forth the effort. Some days are better than others. And that is OK. SOME effort is better than NO effort! This is a super hard concept for me to wrap my brain around. I feel like I am making progress - that is a huge plus!!
So - for next week - what am I going to try and do differently? WELL - taking a page out of last week's book, I am going to PLAN. Food for me generally isn't an issue when I'm at home. I am good about making sure I have healthy snacks in the house, I generally eat well all three meals, and for the most part keep tempting goodies out of the house. (If I didn't have children to care for that makes all this possible, who KNOWS what it would be like!) My biggest hurdle is actually getting in my workouts. I KNOW how important this is for me in order to be successful with weight loss. It can't be hit and miss - I need to do it. Why wouldn't I plan for that??
When I don't have a plan, I waste time. If I know EXACTLY what I need to do, and I'll go a step further, SCHEDULE it, I get it done! No brainer, right? Well, I'd think so, but clearly this is an area I have been struggling with for quite some time now. BUT - for next week - I am going to really focus and THINK about my daily To Do list. I am going to put in some time to work out - I'm even going to specify WHAT I am going to do so I don't have to even think about that. I'm going to follow ALL that advice that you hear ALL the time about how to implement habits....and I'm going to practice it this week! It's my "experiment". Ha ha!
So - to summarize - last week went pretty darn good - I had a plan for food.
This week - I am continuing with my regular food planning. I will also make a daily plan to include specific exercises to do (time lines included) so that I can float through my day from activity to activity.
I should be able to make this a reality. I can make it a success - I just have to allow myself to trust the process instead of trying to FIX it myself! TRUST THE PROCESS!
Here's to a great week!!