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Had a long talk with myself and found out I am not so bad

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Pam, you know you are different than a lot of people. You have tried a lot of things...some even a little kooky...but the way you are now...about average. You need to get off this weight for your health but don't let it stress you out. As long as you know you are trying, it doesn't make any difference what others think. Oh I know you would like everyone to think that you are awesome but it is even more important what you think. As far as have a heap of that. You don't eat right and have not found your right portions...yet. That is still in the works.
You have done a lot of stupid things but that has made you who you are.
Being frustrated and stressed out has caused a lot of health problems but you are getting a handle on that. You have to take each day as it comes. The van has been not starting off and on but then it does...not so bad. If it goes out we will have to deal with it but worrying about it won't fix it.
I have decided that you need to take each day and see it as an adventure. Maybe like Alice felt in Wonderland. Exploring a new world and seeing it not with just your eyes but feeling with your heart and experiencing it with your soul.
Meet new people on spark as they are led your way because they are brought to you by and unseen hand. It is up to you to find out why or just take it as a meaningful experience and not analyse it.
So many, including me, are stressing out about weight and that is just adding to the frustration of putting back the pounds. make it a journey of excitement and wonder. Our bodies are made to move and to be leaner and stronger yet for many years you pushed it with the eating and let it droop without movement. It will take time to reverse those effects. so take the day find the positive, explore your options and experiment and focus on the results.
if you let yourself get down into a funk , it will only cause you to cease movement and stuff your face instead of finding your correct portions. There is some reason you are not losing or that you are gaining so find it and change it. It is , after all, your life. give it heck! Get it on the right track and keep it there. Today is a new day and if you need to, find a new way.

The years have flown by and find me exploring the whys
that I have let myself and my body down.
I have been obsessing over the past and who gave
me the permission to ruin such a beautiful body
When it was given to me, it was perfect.
But in the past I have let myself down with
all the overindulgent ways.
Time to rectify that by finding the path I must go
down to bring that body back to life.
I want to experience what it could feel like
but also not forget to live in the moment
Waiting for my body to find itself is
not a good reason to put my life on hold
being frustrated and demanding
It is a moment in time to see around me
all the positive that is there
and will help to create my life
as I want to live it.
Believe in yourself and just do it!

Life is all around you. Come out of your shell and experience it. Don't obsess on the negative but find your positive.

See the miracles that are all around you. feel the connection with life, nature and those around you.


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
GRANDMABABA 10/28/2013 1:04AM

    Whoever said talking to ourselves is a bad habit it nuts! Now, we just have to listen to ourselves, too! Sometimes we fail to remember just how precious our lives are. We are so worth the effort. Thanks for a great blog.

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COLOR-BLUE 10/27/2013 4:18PM


Now that you have that out of your system, you can CONCENTRATE on all the POSITIVES not only around YOU, but IN YOU, also!!! I see a vibrant, funny, encouraging, a light, for others, and of course a talented writer with a GREAT imagination!!! We're all here to help you, my dear friend. Don't hold things back or in, as it will sabotage your lifestyle change. Get it out like you did today, or go and ask somebody for help. Just don't hold ANY THING IN!!! It just makes you sick.

My dear friend, now is the time to return your journey, with your eyes wide open, so you can finish the journey that God started you on, and with HIS GUIDANCE, YOU'RE MORE THAN A WINNER!!! emoticon

Be blessed,

- Nancy Jean -

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COOLMAMA11 10/24/2013 9:44PM

    Beautiful Blog I really enjoyed reading it, it was like you were talking about me..we all have our struggles but with some faith and work we shall conquer! Good luck on your journey!

Elaine emoticon emoticon

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  emoticon emoticon together emoticon cause you are sooooo worth it!

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PATTYJ48 10/24/2013 9:15AM

    Pam you are awesome and I felt as if you were talking to me. Good luck on your journey. You can do it because YOU ARE TOTALLY WORTH IT!!!!


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ANATASHIKI 10/23/2013 5:59PM

    sorry , the laptop fainted emoticon

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ANATASHIKI 10/23/2013 5:58PM

    lol , different is good emoticon emoticon

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BKNOCK 10/23/2013 3:18PM

    emoticon emoticon

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GOANNA2 10/23/2013 7:14AM

    Great blog Pam. I think I need to talk to myself in
a similar way, lol... emoticon emoticon

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DEBI60X60 10/22/2013 10:55PM

    Good talk Pam! All we can do is keep on trying! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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L*I*T*A* 10/22/2013 7:31PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ISPARKLE77 10/22/2013 3:23PM

    Love your blog! I think we all need to talk to ourselves and set ourselves straight. It is a journey and I DO want to be on the right track.
emoticon to a great friend.

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KATI5668 10/22/2013 2:14PM

    yep...sounds like a good converstation to me..with lots of wisdom thrown in!

be kind to yourself..remember we must first love ourselves before we can love anyone else!


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RACEWELLWON 10/22/2013 1:45PM

    Pam - You Are emoticon to me !

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MADEIT3 10/22/2013 1:36PM

    I love that you say that you are who you are today because of the past -- made up of **all** your decisions. And who you are today is wonderful. Bless you, my dear!!

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WATERONE 10/22/2013 1:33PM

    Listen to that lady talking, she makes a lot of sense! emoticon

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SLIMMERJESSE 10/22/2013 1:29PM

    I enjoyed this. Thanks!

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UMBILICAL 10/22/2013 1:29PM

  Luv those talks

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JRRING 10/22/2013 1:28PM


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