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Tuesday, October 22, 2013




Today is day 7 of my streak!

Having a streak keeps me accountable, and its one of the things that really motivates me to keep working hard to do my best each day. But its not my only motivation. There are other things that work as incentives to keep me on track, such as being able to fit into smaller clothes, looking better, and hearing compliments from my hubby.

Those things are great, but they're not always enough to keep me in line and doing the things I know I need to do. Even though I love hubby's compliments...even though its a thrill to no longer be a size 3x...sometimes those things are just insufficient for keeping my motivation high.

Of course, I know that motivation comes and goes. No matter how much I want something, or how important it is to me, there are times when I am just "not feeling" it, and I want to give up. (At least for a little while.)



I've lost weight quite a few times in my life. I'm 52 now, and my earnest struggles with weight began around the time I turned 30. Thats when the weight started coming on. I tried all sorts of diets....some of them healthy, some of them not. With every diet, I would have success for a while, and then give up and gain the weight back.

In 2006, I joined a women's gym and became a vegetarian. Even though I was a vegetarian, I wasn't really eating the healthiest food, to be honest. There was a lot of junk food in my diet, and I wasn't getting enough calories. I foolishly prided myself on eating around 800 calories or less a day. The weight came off...I lost 86 lbs. But it wasn't sustainable, of course. There was no way I could go on eating 800 calories a day! And in less than a year, I started putting the weight back on. I actually gained back ONE HUNDRED pounds in a very short time! It was embarrassing and heart breaking. I had to pack up all my "skinny clothes" and go back to the plus sizes. I even started buying clothes in the Big Men's department from time to time.



I didn't want to give up, though. I thought that I would lose the weight again, "someday." I joined Sparkpeople and learned a lot about HEALTHY weight loss here. But losing all that weight again seemed like such a HUGE task. I would lose a few pounds, but gain them back.



At first, my motivation to lose the weight was so that I could fit into my skinny clothes again. But it wasn't until I stopped thinking of those clothes, and starting thinking about my health, that I finally was able to get on track and start losing the weight.

There are still times now when I get off track and gain a little weight back, but those times don't last because I don't let them. I remind myself of WHY I am on this journey.

I love to imagine myself fitting into my skinny clothes again someday. I delight in my husbands compliments on how much better I look. But you know what I love even more than those things? The thrill of being fit and healthy, thats what! I have made my health a priority, and that has really made a huge difference in my journey. I am not losing this weight just to look better. I am doing it to FEEL better. I eat right and I exercise because it is a gift to my body. Junk food and lethargy are just abuse.



I will never be perfect on my journey, and thats okay, because I will never give up on myself. I will get off track sometimes, but I will always get back on track again because I know I am worth my best effort. I know what I want, and why I want it.

"We have to see the purpose of our struggle with food as something more than getting to wear smaller sizes and receive compliments.
Shallow desires produce shallow efforts."
-Lysa TerKeurst





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    Well said, great blog as usual

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JAMY130 10/29/2013 2:39AM

    Great post pixie, very inspiring and motivational. I love how honest and real this was, thank you and keep up the good work emoticon .

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NANHBH 10/28/2013 11:08AM

    Pixie,

Did you ever think about writing a book? I think you should - a book on motivation and inspiration. You've got it!
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MONTREAL12 10/27/2013 10:36AM

  Thank-you for your thoughtful insights; much appreciated; have a lovely day!

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    I could really relate to you blog. Thank you for sharing!

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PORTIAWILLIS 10/24/2013 9:53PM

    Been there and done all the same things. Now I am having health problems and I am determined to get healthy for life. Thanks for all the motivational thoughts.

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BECKY0111 10/24/2013 7:31PM

    I totally agree, and it took me 52 years to appreciate my health. As we get older, it's so important and harder to maintain. We must be vigilant. Thank you for posting this inspiring blog!

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BJPENNY70 10/24/2013 5:54PM

    Doing this for you health was the best choice you will ever make. That is why I am living healthy is for my health and my husband health to. I am so proud of you for sharing this. It is a show of strength and dedication for everyday healthy living. You won't regret it. It does make a big difference. It is life changing.

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  Thank you for another fantastic & Inspiring blog !!! emoticon

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LISA_X 10/24/2013 3:15PM

    Love this blog and the motivational quotes emoticon

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    Great blog and great job, Pixie! You've come a long way! emoticon emoticon

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JOANNHUNT 10/24/2013 1:01PM

    AWESOME LADY AND SO TRUE. WE ARE OUR WORST ENEMIES. WE THINK WE ARE DOING SO WELL AND THEN IT CREEPS BACK UP AGAIN. SPARKPEOPLE ROCKS AND SO DO SPARK FREINDS.

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MOMMASGOTINK 10/24/2013 12:51PM

    Love your post, the pictures and your words are both very motivational :)

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OCALAJOYCE 10/24/2013 12:30PM

    I agree with you. I too fall "off track." Learning to forgive myself, pick myself back up, and just say that tomorrow is another day and I will do better is sometimes difficult. Like you said, we are worth it and the results of a healthy body are so awarding. emoticon

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    emoticon Great work! Keep it up

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WENDYANNE61 10/24/2013 10:40AM

    I really loved this blog, Pixie! Just beautiful!

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Thanks for sharing your story. So many truths...

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MYRMEN 10/24/2013 9:39AM

    As you mentionned it is a life long journey. Starting by forgiving and loving myself was the key to get me back on track. emoticon emoticon

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    Well said :)

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    well said


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    Great insight!!

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SEAGLASS1215 10/24/2013 4:28AM

    Awesome blog - inspiring and very motivating! Thank you!

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    You are doing very well. Keep it going and keep spreading the inspiration to others!
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JSEATTLE 10/23/2013 8:14PM

  You really have your head on straight! Congratulations on you 7-Day streak!!

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SUSIEMT 10/23/2013 6:29PM

    You can do this Pixie!

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  great pst

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  Great Blog, Pixie.............. emoticon

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DIANNEMT 10/23/2013 4:04PM

    Healthy is the BEST reward! Looking great is just a bonus!

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NONNAOF2 10/23/2013 2:17PM

  I always like reading your blogs, your honesty is so upfront! Congrats on day 7, it must be your lucky day!! :-)

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NANCY- 10/23/2013 12:44PM

    Love your attitude. Developing a healthy lifestyle is where it is at. You are getting stronger everyday.
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PGHP31CK 10/23/2013 12:25PM

    I love reading your blogs. We're the same age, and walking the same path. I'm so glad that you're here. Your words make a difference for me!

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PINKBUNNY61 10/23/2013 12:24PM

    emoticon I love your blog. I am 53 and in the same situation. Thanks for the motivation.

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