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I've stopped feeling sorry for myself.

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

To every thing there is a season, amirite?

This is the season for me to stop feeling sorry for myself about whatever evils I perceive to have befallen me, and to take responsibility for my own happiness. So here are my final thoughts on mean people.

Regarding Work:
My day job I should have quit 15 years ago. I knew that with every passing year, but it's more and more obvious every day. I cannot view this as wasted time, but merely an extended educational opportunity. It is seriously time to move on.

What I learned from the experience with my crappy day job:
1. Do NOT sink down to the level of petty office bs. Those people have no lives and they truly thrive on fomenting discontent and discord.
2. Most of all of their crap has NOTHING to do with you.
3. All animals are equal, but some animals are more equal than others. This is true everywhere. The goal is to find a barnyard where it's not as intensely obvious.
4. These people deserve each other.

Regarding teaching:
I'm here if you want me, but I'm not going to beg you to come to class. If you're serious about dancing, you will come to me. I'm not going out of my way to bring it to you.

Regarding dancing:
Yeah, I'm that good :)

Regarding home, family, friends:
You are ON YOUR OWN. Loved ones and friends may or may not be there, but ultimately the only person who will give you an unconditional, unselfish, no-string-attached HUG is yourself. Learn to rely on yourself. Learn not to expect love and maybe you'll find it.

Now, with that said, I'm ready to start a new chapter in this crazy life, one which involves running more and running in the cold (oh no!) and one that involves a LOT of self-discipline, which will be good for me. I need that.

More later on the Indy show and goals met!!
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