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Tuesday, October 22, 2013

So, it's just after 7:00 am. I've been up since 6:00 am. For some this is normal, or even for people like my Mom who have to be to work at 5:30 am, 6:00 am is sleeping in. But for me, well, for me this is a VERY unusual thing. So, I'm using this time awake, and alert and excited for the day's adventure to immerse myself in the positivity of SP.

My husband has been saying, for atleast 6 months now. "If you really want to loose weight, you need to do Sparkpeople. That's the only thing I've seen you try that really works." In my mind I was thinking... "I AM doing Sparkpeole". But in reality I wasn't. Tracking when you feel like it, and exercising when you feel like it, and drinking water when you feel like it, without tracking, is not really "doing" sparkpeople, or doing it to the best of your ability. So, as I heard him say this for the 20th time the other day I realized, Wow, when I "did" Sparkpeople and had success, it was a very big priority in my daily life. I used most of my freetime reading, blogging and socializing on here. I realized I'd pushed it into the back corner of the closet only to be used on rare occcasions when I was bored with all my other forms of social media. NO WAY lady, nobody puts Baby in the corner!!!!! (OK, SP is not Baby, and this is not Dirty Dancing, but some of you may get my early morning attempt at humor.) So, I'm back to blogging daily...........for myself, not because I want to share every detail with others, because as we all one wants to hear every detail of my life............but because it's good for me. I enjoy it, it's motivational. I love to write, and it is a really, really great way for me to stay accountable to myself. And someday, I imagine I'll go back and read all these blogs. And I won't have anything to read if I don't write. Logical??? Sure!!!!

So, I'm "doing" Sparkpeople, as my husband says. Not just when I'm bored, but daily. This is my current goal, log on the full site daily. Read a bit, attempt to get motivated in any and every area possible. Act upon said motivation (exercise, water, healthy food, positive social interaction, healthy activity) and repeat everyday. Sounds relatively doable. I did it in the past, I should be able to do it again. And since these last four days I've had my mini Sparkpeople revival, I do feel a familiar tinge of hope that I once had, when I used to "do" Sparkpeople. Just like riding a bike.

Little confession, to myself, and anyone else reading. So, I've never blogged about this before, partly because I thought I had it under control, whatever that means, and partly because I was embarrassed. However, I have been an on again off again smoker for about 2.5-3 years. I was becoming, these last 6 months a very on again (1/3 a pack per day) smoker. I was feeling very helpless, weak, sick, unhealthy, ashamed and addicted. So, I stopped, two weeks ago. I feel really great. I am using the e-cigarettes, which are bad, I know. But, I rarely pick it up, maybe 2-4 puffs every 3-4 hours. I believe in a month or so I won't need those at all. I really can't believe I let myself fall so far into the pit of addiction. And I'm really, really happy with how great it feels to be climbing out. So there, I said it. I can't believe, with all the things I've shared on SP in the last 2 years, I could not admit my smoking habit. I think I just wasn't ready to quit, and I knew if I admitted it, I'd really want to quit ASAP. So yeah, feels good. Have no desire for a "real" cigarette. Hoping soon to have no desire for nicotine at all. And another crutch bites the dust..........................

Have a great day people, I am sure going to give it my best ;)

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    hey hey! congrats on giving up smoking, i have tried to be a smoker when i as younger and never was able to get into it *laughs* is that bad or what? i am with you - only when i immerse myself in spark am i successful. i have a tendency to go way overboard, or not at all, when it comes to health and fitness. i need to continue to try and find a balance.
    1607 days ago
  • BEHAPPY0201
    I do better when I log onto spark regularly - even if I'm not tracking calories, but just tracking exercise and socializing.
    1607 days ago
    I think the e-cig is a very effective method of harm reduction. It may not be wonderful, but it's a far better alternative than combustion of hundreds of additives.

    Congrats on re-committing! You can do this! Consistency is key. You have the tools!
    1609 days ago
  • JSPIN74
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    1610 days ago
    He may be onto something, that husband of yours!
    I've been "doing" Spark People for over 5 years. Every now and then I don't track food for a part of one day, but other than that and one week when I tried not tracking at all (and gaining a couple of pounds by NOT being vigilant), I've been tracking food and fitness. It does keep one accountable, but also creates a record that you can take to a health professional if for some reason you need to see one and your diet is related to your health issue. Most of the time diet IS related to health issues, either directly or indirectly.
    I look forward to reading about your progress!
    1610 days ago
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    1610 days ago
    Congrats on your recommitment to Spark! I know you are going to be awesome!

    Good luck with the smoking. It's a tough monkey to ditch. You can do it!
    1610 days ago
    What an insight your hubby has! No more mindless sparking for you. (I, too, have been guilty of this!)
    "some of you may get my early morning attempt at humor.." Love it!!

    Have a great day.. and tomorrow.. repeat!
    1610 days ago
    SP really does help. It seems when I fail, and disappear from spark, I put weight back on, but when I'm here, even when I fall off that wagon, I seem to get right back on as long as I'm sparking. :)
    As for the ecig, that is how I quit almost two years ago. I just used the no nicotine cartridges that way it's just the feeling of smoking when I needed it without putting the nasty stuff in my body. :)
    1610 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/22/2013 12:59:33 PM
  • KIMPY225
    This website really does help me! I feel more accountable for my actions when I see what I am eating! I also need to make sure I am exercising enough! The community here is great too for support.
    Good luck!
    1611 days ago
    Did you ever see that Starsky and Hutch revival movie? The one with Owen Wilson? It was pretty awful but some parts were undeniably funny. One of them was whenever Starsky's character said, "do It". Notorious seventies saying...Do It.

    I am glad you are feeling sparkalicious! It is inspiring me. emoticon

    1611 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/22/2013 11:12:28 AM
  • CHERYLA2012
    Good for you in making a choice that's going to benefit you in the long-run.

    Losing weight is easier when we do what it is we need to do every day without exception. Pretty soon it becomes routine and when we don't do it, we miss it -- or maybe that's just me!
    1611 days ago
  • DIETER27
    good luck........
    1611 days ago
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