So, it's just after 7:00 am. I've been up since 6:00 am. For some this is normal, or even for people like my Mom who have to be to work at 5:30 am, 6:00 am is sleeping in. But for me, well, for me this is a VERY unusual thing. So, I'm using this time awake, and alert and excited for the day's adventure to immerse myself in the positivity of SP.
My husband has been saying, for atleast 6 months now. "If you really want to loose weight, you need to do Sparkpeople. That's the only thing I've seen you try that really works." In my mind I was thinking... "I AM doing Sparkpeole". But in reality I wasn't. Tracking when you feel like it, and exercising when you feel like it, and drinking water when you feel like it, without tracking, is not really "doing" sparkpeople, or doing it to the best of your ability. So, as I heard him say this for the 20th time the other day I realized, Wow, when I "did" Sparkpeople and had success, it was a very big priority in my daily life. I used most of my freetime reading, blogging and socializing on here. I realized I'd pushed it into the back corner of the closet only to be used on rare occcasions when I was bored with all my other forms of social media. NO WAY lady, nobody puts Baby in the corner!!!!! (OK, SP is not Baby, and this is not Dirty Dancing, but some of you may get my early morning attempt at humor.) So, I'm back to blogging daily...........for myself, not because I want to share every detail with others, because as we all know..............no one wants to hear every detail of my life............but because it's good for me. I enjoy it, it's motivational. I love to write, and it is a really, really great way for me to stay accountable to myself. And someday, I imagine I'll go back and read all these blogs. And I won't have anything to read if I don't write. Logical??? Sure!!!!
So, I'm "doing" Sparkpeople, as my husband says. Not just when I'm bored, but daily. This is my current goal, log on the full site daily. Read a bit, attempt to get motivated in any and every area possible. Act upon said motivation (exercise, water, healthy food, positive social interaction, healthy activity) and repeat everyday. Sounds relatively doable. I did it in the past, I should be able to do it again. And since these last four days I've had my mini Sparkpeople revival, I do feel a familiar tinge of hope that I once had, when I used to "do" Sparkpeople. Just like riding a bike.
Little confession, to myself, and anyone else reading. So, I've never blogged about this before, partly because I thought I had it under control, whatever that means, and partly because I was embarrassed. However, I have been an on again off again smoker for about 2.5-3 years. I was becoming, these last 6 months a very on again (1/3 a pack per day) smoker. I was feeling very helpless, weak, sick, unhealthy, ashamed and addicted. So, I stopped, two weeks ago. I feel really great. I am using the e-cigarettes, which are bad, I know. But, I rarely pick it up, maybe 2-4 puffs every 3-4 hours. I believe in a month or so I won't need those at all. I really can't believe I let myself fall so far into the pit of addiction. And I'm really, really happy with how great it feels to be climbing out. So there, I said it. I can't believe, with all the things I've shared on SP in the last 2 years, I could not admit my smoking habit. I think I just wasn't ready to quit, and I knew if I admitted it, I'd really want to quit ASAP. So yeah, feels good. Have no desire for a "real" cigarette. Hoping soon to have no desire for nicotine at all. And another crutch bites the dust..........................
Have a great day people, I am sure going to give it my best ;)