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Who is this me?

Monday, October 21, 2013

43 years old. 60 pounds overweight. I feel like a turtle on my back most of the time. How the hell did this happen?

It is hard for me not to beat myself up in the name of taking responsibility. I am really good at beating myself up. Probably about 30 pounds worth of good. :( I am also attracted to toxic people and high stress situations. I am not great at saying no, except to myself.

So, I am back to basics and trying to focus on the whole picture, not just weight loss. A healthier me. A me that eats homemade food. I am, after all, a really good cook. A me that tries to reduce stress so I therefore reduce stress eating. A me that remembers to practice yoga because I love it and it makes me feel good. A me that recognizes that I am attractive despite being fat. I don't know this me but I am working to get to know her. Do you want to come along for the ride?
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    Yes, I blogged about this yesterday and am trying hard to not go crazy on myself about it. Was 3 lbs away from goal and then the happenings of this year struck. Sometimes the only good thing that's happening is food.
    1436 days ago
    Absolutely "with" you! I've taken self bashing up to an art form...need to leave it behind and focus on all the good which I bury with the bash...ugh!

    1436 days ago
  • ACHIEVE2012
    Yeh, life catches you unaware sometimes. It happened to me when I suddenly discovered that I had gained 10 pounds. It seemed like it came overnight. It hadn't just shown up one day, ofcourse, but it felt like that.

    It is good that you recognize the goodness in you. That will help to keep a positive outlook.

    As for me, I dealt with the sudden realization of having gained a bunch of pounds making me the highest weight I had ever been by coming up the next big number and decided that I would never let myself get to that number. I am infact going to go in the opposite direction of that number.
    I started to exercise, slowly at first and built it up and also become more mindful of what and how much I was eating without being too restrictive. I also decided to drink lot of water and also tracked the water so I was sure to drink water throughout the day.
    It all helped and I do see results. I think, you will too since you are recognizing the good and the bad. That is the first step since knowing the problem is important so that you can work on it. Good Luck in your journey.
    1436 days ago
    I let myself get to the highest weight of my life following a major surgery that left me in a wheel chair for three months. Then I turned 50 an a neighbor I hadn't seen in awhile asked what the heck happened to me? We had at one time been walking partners and though not skinny, we were pretty fit. Since then I've been back to taking much better care of myself. On my 60th birthday last year I was the healthiest I'd been in a very long time and continue to be so now. The contrast is startling and encouraging. We can do this! Great success to you!
    1436 days ago
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