Monday, October 21, 2013
I feel like absolute crap this morning. And (hopefully) not in a sick way. I am just absolutely exhausted, my back is pinched and in pain, and I kind of feel nauseas and I have no idea why. It's all I can do not to curl up into a ball right now and fall asleep at my desk.
I haven't been on track calories since last Wednesday. So much for my only 7 days this month that I allotted for. I don't know why its so dang hard for me to just say no and not eat what I want to eat. Thursday I binged on popcorn and gingerale after having a pretty good day. Friday I went grocery shopping and cooked a healthy homemade dinner, then splurged for pumpkin pie ice cream (THAT I BOUGHT--WHY?). Saturday and Sunday were two of the days I had originally planned as cheat days, Saturday we went to the amusement park and yesterday we had our Sunday night dinner with friends.
My weekly weigh in last week showed no progress, nor gain though. Which I was expecting, so I was happy about that. However, I think I fell into the mindset that I don't really *need* to lose weight therefore I don't really have to care what I eat so I didn't. And now I'm mad I let myself do that. I still want progress, and pumpkin ice cream won't help that!!! Nevermind that I'd still like to be sticking to modified paleo. ugggh.
I don't really have a game plan. Last week I needed to mind and body detox, which I guess I'm still doing. After the sort of fiasco with my friends last weekend I'm just feeling "I'm over it, it happened, it's done, whatever." No use wallowing on the hurt or what she was thinking. I didn't drink this weekend. I do feel better emotionally when I don't drink and get more exercise (duh-right?!). Why then is it hard to stick to that in order to keep yourself feeling better??!
I want to streak until Thanksgiving. Realistically, I know that probably won't happen. But I would love to have progress before then. And I don't think I'll be able to exercise today because of my back. I'm so frustrated. Well at least I don't want to eat because I'm feeling too nauseas (lol...). One day at a time...