Sunday, October 20, 2013
I had one of the most frustrating, defeating conversations today. I can not believe how this women's comments are really getting under my skin.
A women at my church recently ran a 5k race, so when I saw her I congratulated her on the accomplishment of finishing the race. She was quick to tell me her time (which had also been posted in the facebook group message). She made a comment about wanting to train to run other 5k's, she also mentioned that she had walked a small portion of this race. I told her about the C25K app I had downloaded for free and how it had made all the difference in me finally being able to complete 3 miles. She then asked how fast I ran 3 miles. I told her and she said "oh...that's pretty slow, I finished the 5k in 42 minutes and I walked some...so I'm doing pretty well". Mind you, she isn't telling me anything I don't already know. I KNOW I am not running very fast, but I am running 3 miles without stopping which for me is a HUGE achievement. I just can not get over the fact that a person could be so incredibly rude and insensitive to someone else. Seriously, did she think I wasn't aware of how slow I was? Really...did she needed to tell me she could walk faster than I run? Really...on what planet was any of that going to be helpful to me. Hey...as long as she walked away from the situation feeling good about herself.
I am so frustrated. I can look at the situation and see that she is trying to make herself feel better regardless of what the cost might be to me. I should be able to let it roll off my back, but I can't. I am a brand new runner. I JUST finished the C25K program on 9/23, completing the distance is still a struggle for me. To have this woman tell me I'm slow is so diminishing to my efforts. I have been very quiet about my running, because I know I have a long way to go, because I know I am a beginner. I am so frustrated because I took a risk, was vulnerable and she behaved very poorly.