Sunday, October 20, 2013
When it comes to tracking, historically, I've looked forward to it as much as I'd look forward to tracking and meeting the grizzly that left this print.
I hated thinking about what I'd eaten and writing it down meant I'd have to really own up to it. But, it's a tool that has worked for me and my relationship with tracking has improved over the years.
I definitely went through the phase when I wanted it to be perfect. Back in 1989 when I tracked and lost weight with Weight Watchers, they had boxes that you checked for each type of food. Oh how I hated when I'd eaten past my boxes. I did appreciate that it taught me to visualize the balance of foods that I needed to consume to have successful weight loss.
After I'd lost weight, I relaxed on tracking and while I was able to stay close to where I wanted, I started taking a hard look at my emotional eating. Nothing like tracking to help me see a binge. I think the Breaking Free from Compulsive eating book helped me get through the judgement I put on myself about what I'd eaten. I started just looking at it as a way to observe myself and what led me to eating more that I wanted to eat.
So this week, when my Butterfly Butterfly team took up tracking as the LTGL challenge, I was actually happy to see how far I've come. I love online tracking, especially what's available on Spark People. I'm grateful for what it can teach me and I FINALLY get that what I find at the end of my food tracking is nothing to be afraid of.
Just like my behavior changes depending on what type of track i see on the trail, my behavior can change based on what I add to my tracker. I don't run out of the woods when I see a bear track, I'm just more cautious. I don't eat more when I see I've eaten too much, I'm just more cautious.
There's always a message, sometimes it's just hard to read.