Sunday, October 20, 2013
This blog isnít about anything new. Itís a theme that we see in other peopleís blogs. You have definitely seen this in my writing, because for me this is a pattern I repeat. I think Iíve made progress toward getting my thought patterns to improve. I just want to share with you how this episode played out.
Yesterday Iíd begun anew to be on track. Good day. I was on track. This morning before getting out of bed I was excited, thinking about all the great options I have for exercise. Lots of DVDs to choose from, upstairs I have a bike and a new elliptical. Weights, too. Outdoors I can walk or take a ride on my new bike. Sometimes I get overwhelmed with all the choices, and never settle on anything. But today was different. I was sure I was going to do something.
When I got up I put on my workout clothes, still feeling great. Then I caught sight of my mirror. You know how your eyes zero in on your problem area. All I saw was a big belly. I groaned internally and felt defeated.
Instead of reaching for my mental affirmations, I reached out to my wise, understanding and patient hubby. What would I do without him? He so often has to help me through all the mental torture I put myself through. He is awesome at it.
Here are some elements of our discussion. My self-critical mindset has been with me for 40 years, and Iím definitely having a hard time changing it. I can psych myself up, talk the talk and walk the walk for a time and then regress. We discussed how Iím not having the right motivation to exercise. The choice to exercise in order to look good to other people isnít working for me. I easily get off track. Sometimes I donít care what others think, and then I donít feel the urge to better myself. So I donít exercise or eat well.
He mentioned reasons to exercise that are more productive. Do it because it feels good. Do it for my mental health . . . Iím happier if I work out. Do it because it makes me feel strong . . . especially how it helps me not have back pain. He reminded me also that I should feel good about taking care of my heart, and overall health.
He ended by reminding me that exercise should be a regular part of my daily routine like brushing my teeth. Be committed to it and not let other activities crowd it out. If Iím too busy to workout, I am too busy.
As I said, none of this discussion I had with him was new to me. I have to hear it again and again. I just wish it would click. I get my mindset steered in the right direction and within days forget all these good thoughts. They dissolve and Iím back at square one. For now Iím on the upswing.
I went and did my new Jillian Killer Abs DVD. Got it a month ago and finally tried it. I did this because I wanted to. Not for other people but for me. It was a good workout! Iíve had a good food day, right on target. Iím going to fit better in my swimsuit in no time.