Sunday, October 20, 2013
I guess the light bulb finally clicked in my head.
My wonderful husband bought a HUGE ginormous bag of Halloween candy on October 1st, expecting it to be there UNOPENED on October 31st. HA! The "good stuff" too! Snickers and Twix! (don't care too much for the 3 Musketeers or Milky Way). A couple of days after he bought it, I found myself back to my old tricks... cutting a very thin slit into the bag and sneaking a few out every day or so... or a couple of times a day, LOL! And then putting the bag back exactly where he had it up on top of the cabinets so he wouldn't get suspicious. I was hiding the wrappers in the trash so he (or the boys) wouldn't know. Well, by mid OCT it was getting obvious the bag was shrinking. I contemplated doing what the OLD me would do... go and buy another bag exactly like it and replace it so I wouldn't be "found out".
Then it hit me like a ton of bricks.... I DON'T NEED TO ACT LIKE THAT!!!!!! I am 40 years old. I am at a healthy weight and have been maintaining it (for the most part) for 3 and a half years now. I am extremely faithful to exercise. I don't drink sodas, eat fast food, drink alcohol.... and my 3 meals of the day are healthy.
If I want a few pieces of candy every now and again, then SO BE IT! I do not need to be ashamed of it or do I need to hide it. I have absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about. I am not going to hide anything any more!
WOW! That feels so free-ing to finally realize this!!!!
Hubby DID discover the opened bag of candy and "grilled" me about it, just like I feared.... but I stood up for myself and told him exactly what I felt and that was the end of that! I didn't feel bad or shamed at all!
A follow-up to my last blog.... I asked my trainer why he gave them MY name when it was an article for "The Senior Living" section of the paper and he said the newspaper folks felt it would give them "the most exposure"... The reporter asked for names of people "whose lives had been changed the most by CrossFit"... YEP! Def. ME! He said I was the first name that came to his mind. The other 2 names he gave were people younger than me. I can't wait to see the article. Of course, NOW, I am coming up with AWESOME quotes of things I should have said, lol... Oh well!
WOW! I weighted in at 135 this morning! The lowest I have been in awhile. And that is with having a few cookies last night. I am trying to reach my goal of a 125-130 MX range.... slowly but surely. I am going to go out and run this morning for the first time in a few weeks. Praying my heel doesn't act up. I got some "Superfeet" insoles that have been making my feet feel pretty amazing when I walk in them so hopefully they will do the same when I run. Just nobody tell my physical therapist, OK????