Sunday, October 20, 2013
Made it through yesterday but just barely!!! At sister's last night for wedding chat....omg what is wrong wth my sister...bride trying to slim down, me on a diet since I was 11 and she has the same weight issue I have and she has little cups of individual chocolate candy and dip and chips and my nemesis........Goulash........
....She had it laid on the counter in plain view..........now I laugh at her antics outloud but inside I wonder why she would want to derail me and my daughter's efforts even on some level,...She is a wonderful person and I love her and we are very close and she verbally supports me but when this kind of thing happoens I wonder what is going on,,,,,My self and hubby talked about it on the way home...(yes he gets dragged to wedding talk too) and I said to him, she is buying this and is saying it is for her child but she is buying it for herself!!! I did that too a long time ago, so I can understand! But she needs to make this change for herself!!!! She has to open her own eyes like I did. I cannot do it for her. Although she has comitted to joining the gym with me next week??!! We will see. She has health problems which would certainly be helped by a healthier way of life. And she is going through a transitional period, divorce and all the associated issues. I hate to see her so sad and lonely, sigh I was there myself many many years ago and I know she will be happy again some day when she finds a man that deserves her, like I did!!! I am sad to say this but I thibk she wants someone to be fat with her, i know about that as well. Anyway, enough of that!!
The only way I kept to my goal.... I battled numerous offers for wine,,,,is I announced due to my weight, my sugar levels, the wedding and the hangover 2 glasses of wine gives me, I was giving it up because there are no pros to drinking except that warm fuzzy glow while I am drinking it,,, and she understood and stopped offering it to me. I did eat choclate and chips and a taste of goulash...damn you pasta!!!!!!! I tracked everything but managed to stay within 2000 cals because I couldn't find chicken wings at the supermarket!!! lol So we had skinless chicken pieces for supper and the calories were much less so the caolries I saved all day to eat wings were used on chocolate and chips!!!! I know this is not healthy but this is a weekend outside the norm, which sounds like an excuse, but it really is,,,but I do have to learn to manage these events! Another opportunity to practice today!
Today is another challenge! family birthday dinner at same sister's house! full on turkey dinner!!! In Newfoundland we have a jiggs dinner with that!!!! Boiled salt meat, a peas pudding and carrot, turnip, potato, cabbage and turkey and dressing and gravy!!! Oh my! Of couse my fav is the calorie dense peas pudding!
However I am confident I can reach my goals again today! Just some planning.
Had a late breakfast on purpose so I can have a light lunch, salad again, low calorie and I will eat an apple with peanut butter at 5:00. Dinner is 5:30. Peanut butter apple fills me for hours and of course I will plan the precise amount of each item I will eat before I go!!!
Wish me luck!!!