Saturday, October 19, 2013
So here I am beginning again. I did ask my Dr. for help dealing with this depression and anxiety. It seems to be working, thankfully. I still have bad moments but I am some better than I was before. I've started logging what I eat and watching what I eat also. Though I'm not doing he shakes any more. I figure I will enjoy one once in a while simply because they are healthy and they taste good. But, I don't think I will replace meals with them. My sister is doing this with me and to an extent so are my husband and children. I asked them to do this with me at home, so that there wouldn't be any junk food in the house. All I have to do is survive after they go trick or treating! So far I have lost 4 pounds. It was very quick and I'm sure it was water weight, but who cares! ;) That's 4 lbs off of me so I'll take it! As far as my grieving goes... I doubt it will ever really be over. But the last time I went to the cemetery (My Mom and Dad, and my little girl are all buried in a row) I cried. But it was such a different cry. It felt more like acknowledging what had happened instead of agonizing and wishing it wouldn't have. I think that could be called progress as well. I so appreciate everyone that encouraged me. I don't know any of you personally but I really feel you are all a tremendous help to me.