I'm starting over again. I had a great momentum going on, daily exercise and good eating habits, and I lost 15 pounds in about 7 weeks.
Then, my kitten, Violet, died. She was an orphan, and I had bottle fed her around the clock from the time she was 2 weeks old. She was sick and had liver problems because of her early starvation, but I thought she was doing better. She had become a major part of my life in the 5 months she was with me. I have suffered 4 miscarriages, so loosing her on August 3rd, 2013, was like loosing the only baby I've ever been able to actually hold and nurture.
I lost it. I had a lot to recover from, grief, exhaustion, a massive life change.
In the two and a half months since she died, I've dealt with another death in the family, some major chapters of my life coming to an end and a lot of miscellaneous stress from all aspects of my life. It feels like I've just been dodging bullets and trying to keep my head above water.
I stopped exercising, I've tried very hard to keep my eating habits healthy, but I've started eating out a lot instead of cooking because I don't "have the energy" (or the desire) to cook. In the last couple of weeks, I'm starting to feel like I might be coming out of the hardest part and moving into new energy in my life, so I'm hoping to capitalize on that and get back into working on my fitness goals.
I'm thinking about joining another 5k, or maybe a 10k, to give me something to push for and get back on the bandwagon :)
Hopefully, I'll be able to regain the excitement I had about it before, I'm hoping SparkPeople can help me reclaim traction in my life in addition to working on my goals.