It's been almost 3 years since I made a serious attempt at losing weight. At that time, I started out at 210 pounds, and I made it down to 188 with the help of SparkPeople. I was so proud of myself, and had every intention to carry on with what I was doing. But then I met this guy. He was so sweet and so funny and I had a blast every time I was with him. He started taking me out on these dates. Dates to the movies, full of popcorn and candy and Icees. Dates to the best Italian restaurant in town. Dates to his Grandma's monthly family birthday celebrations, superfluous with homemade deliciousness. Do you see where I'm going here?
All wrapped up in my joy of meeting this new, wonderful guy, I started putting the weight back on slowly but surely. It's now been 3 years, I'm married to that fantastic guy, and I'm sitting at my highest weight of 253. Given that we both hate cooking, we fell into a terrible habit of dining out constantly, and it shows in every way possible. Not only have I visibly gained the weight, but I feel terrible. Everyday things, like getting up from sitting on the floor or standing on my feet for any amount of time, feel like work and cause me pain. I've been embarrassed of nearly every picture taken of me in the last year. I'm more body conscious than I've been since high school, and it's all terrible, terrible, terrible.
The kicker for me was putting my wedding dress on the day of my fitting to find out it was now too small. Even after taking it out as far as it would go, the dress bunched above my hips because it couldn't fit over them. I had no choice but to walk down the aisle like that. What a terrible thing on your wedding, the one day of your life that you get to be pampered into perfection.
I spent a few weeks after the wedding wallowing over it, but now I've decided that I can't be like that anymore. Feeling terrible about is never going to make the weight come off. Crying about how I look in the mirror is not going to make my clothes fit better. So I started trying to force myself into a more positive attitude, and led myself back to SparkPeople.
For the first few weeks, I'm following the SparkPeople meal plans. I found in the past that once I got the food on track, the exercise bit came so much easier for me. I felt accomplished and proud of eating better, and it made me want to do better in other aspects. So I'm taking the same approach this time around. I'm going to focus mostly on the food for 2 or 3 weeks and try to get a better grip on the types of food I'm eating and the portions. I'm trying to get more walking in as well, but meeting the fitness goals isn't going to be my number one priority until I feel more comfortable with the food.
So for week one, I did really well. I followed the meal plan closely and was within range of all four categories (calories, carbs, fat, and protein) for the entire week. I drank 8+ glasses of water every day this week, and have paid much more attention to the caloric intake from my drinks. I'm pretty pleased with how the week went, so my goal for next week is just to repeat. After two or three weeks, I'm hoping I find it a little easier!