Before I begin my blog, I want to give a shout out to all of you who have given me strength and support and a kick in the keester when I needed it the most. I truly and sincerely thank you and want you to know that I do indeed treasure each and every one of you.
Now to my blog and I will try to make it short and sweet, or not! LOL
When I was much younger and very stupid, I had a fantasy relationship. I wanted a man, a hero, a savior, with a specific job which exemplified what a young girl that was very stupid wanted. I got what I wanted! I grew up very fast and ended up being triggered into my dark side. Yes I have one, and yes we ALL have a dark side. I ended up in therapy and from there into a 35 year path of learning about the workings of the mind. It's made me a very aware person, not a better than anyone else person, but very well educated.
I still acknowledge I have that main trigger. It would be stupid not to. It functions in my life on a daily basis. It permeates every aspect of my life. It gets put up in front of my face and at this point in my life I have to deal straight on with it. I have no choice.
Isn't it when we have no other choice that we finally do indeed deal with "it". I think so.
Now, dealing with a trigger to me means to LOOK at it. Don't cover it up, no longer avoid that it is present, don't blame it on others or circumstances "beyond my control", don't medicate to help me "feel better", don't try "positive thinking" it away. And above all else learn how to not make it into a big &*^&***** deal!
Dealing with an issue is looking, waiting, and simply being at peace. Only then does it lose it's hold.
I need do nothing is my mantra.
I can see peace instead of this is my mind set.