My Dad said that to me this morning. Apparently I have too many feelings. I just need to focus on getting things done and not on the final outcome. How am I supposed to know what to do if I don't know what the final outcome is supposed to be? Not sure. For me its a two edged sword, if I am not emotionally involved, then I just don't care at all. It doesn't matter. I will do a meditation to set aside all feeling regards this current project. I can sense a 'butt' in there somewhere but I don't know what it is.
The primary issue is that I am still
sick. And I am very
cranky. The only person I can tolerate is my cat. I pretty much hate everybody. Whether they deserve it or not.
Living can be a pain in the
petunias. Its not that anything is particularly wrong. Its that nothing is particularly right. Before you blame fall for my
malaise, bear in mind that we are still in the mid 80s
here. We haven't had fall
yet. I am so burned from this last
summer that I have terrible tan lines on each arm where my little cap sleeves left me bare.
I'm not doing great on the exercise front. I am barely eeking out a
Leslie Sansone dvd. I guess thats the virus. I feel like a lazy slug. I feel fat.
I have a schedule for the next week or so. I plan to stay on target with my
eating. I will be doing tai chi and Leslie Sansone dvds.
I wish I lived where I could take baths. None of our bath tubs work and one of my house mates is allergic to my bath salts, so I couldn't take them even if the tub did work. I like lavender.
I am hoping that next month will be better. My bones hurt with this virus. I have lots of inflammation. I'm avoiding wheat right now. I'm not having toast, I'm having oatmeal instead. I did make tapioca yesterday. Its good for my blood sugar. I am taking magnesium and fish
oil to help with general inflammation.
Did I mention? We have a bear
in the yard. A real honest to goodness black
bear. I hope he is ok and doesn't get hit by a car.