Friday, October 18, 2013
Today, my head is in the right frame of mind and I am eating healthy food, but I'm not feeling any 'thinner', even though some of my clothes are starting to loosen up a bit. My frustration stems from an annoyance because I have let myself gain back weight and I feel terrible and look worse So...shoulders back and snap out of it. But how? I'm going to try a modification of BradMill2922 blog from last week that really resonated with me. It was called Remember. I hope that these feelings will be something that I can recall this time next year -- because that will mean that I have succeeded and reached my goals of a healthy mind and body. Here goes...
How I felt a month ago:
Physically exhausted, no energy at all, couldn't really lift my legs well to walk, massive headaches, lack of sleep, body systems out of whack. Emotionally tortured, irritable, embarrassed, and lackluster. I dreaded the thoughts of going out socially (although I had to go to work every day), and I was wearing the same clothes repeatedly because that's what fit. I postponed doctor appointments because I did not want to get on a scale. It seemed like I was in a trance. I was eating whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, and I took no responsibility in my actions with regard to my physical well being.
How I feel today:
Hopeful. Resolved to do well today, and committed to staying the course. I have had many instances where I was not perfect in my food choices but I have been able to treat these 'variances' as a standard deviation, and not a licence to retreat. Tomorrow will be a new day, and I intend to do more of the same. I understand that I am still in the honeymoon phase of my journey, and that tougher days will be upon me, but perhaps I'll cheat a little and remember my past before the year is up... and that will help me get past the next roadblock.
September 2014...here I come!