Friday, October 18, 2013
Today is going to be a tough day to get through. I got some bad news yesterday that really set me off and left me feeling very overwhelmed. Before, I would drown my sorrows in ice cream, cookies, cake, chocolate...you name it. If it was bad for me but brought me comfort, it was going in my mouth.
I so far haven't done that but it's taken a lot of will power to resist. I'm only one week into this program and haven't started exercising yet so that's not something that I would naturally turn to. I'd love to put my PJs on, crawl back into bed, turn the TV on and just do crafts all day. That would bring me comfort but since I run two businesses and a charity, my work life doesn't allow that kind of luxury. There's no such thing as a stress day or sick day.
I so desperately need to find something else to be my "comfort" when times are stressful which is far too often. It's why I'm this overweight. I'm a stress eater. I know it's no one else's fault but my own. No one held a gun to my head and made me eat. And...I know that stress will always be a part of my life. It's the nature of my businesses and the charity I run so I need to find a way to deal with it other than turning to food.
This will likely be the toughest part of this journey because it's a hurdle I just don't know how to overcome.