Frustrated and Confused
Friday, October 18, 2013
The scale keeps going up, and it is very frustrating to me. I get that the weekend wasn't great, and I should be glad that most of that damage is going away, but I only stayed in the 160s for a week. Just bummed that even when I was doing everything right I was gaining.
On a better note, the 5K training is going great! I had no motivation to complete my run today, but got through it by telling myself I can quit after 20 minutes if it really isn't working. I got to 20 and the next ten minutes were a piece of cake! the last 5 were rougher, I had to take 20 seconds to walk 2 minutes in, but I did it!
I even worked on my pace! Instead of going 5.5 mph for half of the 4 minute running segments , I kept a steady baseline of 5.0 mph on my running segments, with 1 minute intervals ranging from 5.2-6.0 to keep it interesting. And I ended up going further than I had on Wednesday when I felt I burnt myself out! 2.9 miles today!
I feel very accomplished. I just hope when the intervals go away I will still be able to do it. I'm worried I am relying too heavily on the walk intervals as a crutch and that I won't be able to jog the whole 5K.
All in all I am trying to keep things in perspective. Yes, I gained weight back. But I am also building endurance-I am jogging longer and farther than I was 2 weeks ago when I felt so great about breaking into the 160s. I'm also stronger, I feel it in my legs.
Additionally, I feel like I look thinner. I know my measurements have increased, but I've become very aware of my elbows, knees, and clavicles.They are very pointy/bony, whereas before they were cushioned. I don't understand how my numbers are all going up, when they appear to be going down.
Also notable, and maybe makes some sense out of this-my waist to hip measurement DECREASED on this last weigh in. So maybe I'm getting more proportional or something, thus causing the appearance of weight loss when there is none?