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Friday, October 18, 2013

So now that I am back here....I will elaborate on a few things that have been going on in my world over the last few months. Yeah, yeah...I retired an office after 20 years of being there, I was on unemployment for about 2 seconds (Ok, months) and I decided to drop it because it was a p.i.t.a. to play the "claim game" to keep it open "just in case" I was unemployed again within the next year...ridiculous nonsence really IMHO...don't even get me going on the stupidity of how they do things there. Anyway, I started up my own direct selling business for extra cash, and I have 2 part time jobs... nothing like a busy person being busier than they can handle and then get thru getting the family back into the school-zone... so guess what? I was stressed and WAITING PATIENTLY for the day when things finally settled down.

So things have finally settled down. Whew! emoticon

Well....sort of emoticon

SOMEthing was missing.

And wasn't exercise.... that has been missing for months now. emoticon

At the beginning of October, I looked at my stressed out teacher husband (you have no idea, unless you live with one, what the new "core" curriculum is doing to teachers these days - the joy of teaching is basically gone. Very sad.) and it clicked in my head that we, as a family, have lost our joy.

We lost our joy in being to scattered and too busy and too disconnected with one another.

Again.... very sad. emoticon

Sure, we are there, running around, volunteering for each kid's activity (hubby assists with each kid's activity in some way, shape or form - whether it's running the Pack, or Assistant coaching football, or being on the Troop committee)... and I am working 2to 3 nights a week... so my voluteering days are limited, so I get karate drop-offs and the string ensemble rehearsal drop offs. Yup....we are constantly moving and running and from what I hear, it only gets worse the older they get!! emoticon

But I digress... back to finding joy.

We went camping this past weekend and while it was still littered with the various activites of sports events for the weekend - we were forced to be a family and have fun while hanging in the popup and making fires for roasting marshmallows.

It was wonderful emoticon

And it also got me thinking of why we have been so stressed out...and how my "joy" of sparking was all but extinguished... how my body was being affected... and how all of that was playing with my head in one giant mind F---. (yes, you can use the F-curse right there)

I lost my own joy.

Brass tacks: I am maintaining, without exercise, without Sparking, without any help... but something is missing.

I miss the community. The likemindedness. The comraderie. The cheering of one another on.

I also miss the "me" I was when I was just starting maintenance.

I miss the figuring it all out part. The challenge of fitting it all in. And yes....I miss the body I had when that was going on too....because I was more active and under my pizza dough stomach, I still had a 6 pack that was rock solid... one that noone could see at all, but it was there! I swear it was! It's gone down to a 3 pack now, btw, but I am hoping the muscle memory will be there as well. ;)

So I decided this past weekend to stir up what I wanted to do 3 years ago. School and learning to better myself and others was there, but took a giant back seat because of work, family, and stress of how to actually go about going it...and that was with what I thought was a pretty good plan. I might as well have gone back to school full time to become a doctor because that is how daunting it was to do the whole Registered Dietician route. Nope....not going to work for me... so life came in and swallowed me and that dream up & put it on the waaaay back burner...not even on a simmer at that point either. The burner was turned 'off'.

This week I signed up for a year long course to become a Certified Health Coach. Yup, I did. It will help me do the other thing I want to do, besides coaching people like I do on here, but I will actually have something to "back it up" besides just Sparking and Maintaining for the last few years. With my other knowledge in my other field, I have a seriously solid background for an assembly workshop that has been mulling and spinning around in my head for that I can actually visualize myself carrying out and doing for actual monetary compensation! Imagine that?!?! It's hard for me to actually, because I always just give give give....but I'm older and wiser now...I know better and deserve better too. But with that...I digress... because really, it's about helping people and whatever I get, that is OK with me since I am planning on doing this as a side gig until things take off.

Slow and steady wins the race....every time, as far as I am concerned.

So my joy today has been the walk I took...and the new world that I am undertaking with this new course.

Amazing how your mindset can change with just one simple thing or action.

Amazing how your heart and gut can tell what is right and wrong with something too.

Simply amazing.

So there ya go my old Sparkfriends....I hope you find some joy today and write about it....and if you have none that is visible, I hope you take another look - at another angle - and open your eyes, because it is there to been seen... you just have to want to see it.... and if you really DON'T see it...then it's time to make some joy on your one said you couldn't do that either...


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    Great blog! What course did you take to become a certified health coach? With what do you help people?
    1569 days ago
  • EJOK170
    Great blog! I'm new to this maintaining thing but I can definitely relate to everything you said. Great that you posted---so fun to read and relate!
    1571 days ago
    Way to go! I really connect with what you are saying on the family-front with running all the time! I have often thought about how to take it down a notch with activities. Congratulations on a great blog! Best of luck to you on your new path in life! Much success! emoticon
    1571 days ago
    HOLY MOLEY !!! emoticon to everyone reading and commenting on this blog!! I am honored!! I wish I could get to each and very one of you today, but I am under time constraints - this will have to do for now until I can make some visits "personally"

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    1573 days ago
    Life does get busy and we tend to "lose" ourselves. Good for you for "finding" yourself and what you need to do for you! I agree that we lose the joy of life as we rush here and there. I'm glad you figured out how to get that back.

    Thanks for the blog and I look forward to "seeing" you around more often!
    1574 days ago
    Wishing you the BEST in your new journey! emoticon
    1574 days ago
    So proud (and kinda jealous really) of you for having the courage to persue the Health Coach education! You will be AWESOME!!!
    1575 days ago
    Wow Annieonli! That is a great! That takes guts and courage. I am so happy for you. I hope you find more joy in your life. I have been there very busy with children and work. It will change as your children grow up and away. Please enjoy them, there troop meetings, football and all the rest. My children are all grown and now worry about me. My Mom just passed away in October. Now I am alone again with few more years before I can retire and get SS. I have to keep busy and have started a new part-time seasonal job. I pray it leads to something better. Linda from bean town emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1575 days ago
  • MOMMY445
    you will definitely make a great health coach!
    1576 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    Best of luck to you as you get back on track and I hope that you and your entire family find the joy that was missing. Life is busy but we must take the time to enjoy it, otherwise it is gone in the blink of an eye!
    Great job on finding where you need to go and best of luck on getting your certification!

    1576 days ago
  • MAREE1953
    Wishing you joy in your new endeavor!!
    1576 days ago
    Joy to you all your life through! Keep up the good work!
    1576 days ago
    Wow, just reading the first part of your blog left me breathless. I'm happy you are finding joy again. You AND your family deserve it!
    1577 days ago
    Finding joy is absolutely what it's all about and your plan is excellent!
    1577 days ago
    I understand where you are. Great assessment and plan to move forward! emoticon
    1577 days ago
  • _LINDA
    Good luck with this new path in life. May you find it rewarding and fun! On a side note, its great your children are involved in so many activities and not just spending hours in front of a screen! Good on you!
    Keep on being amazing, and always find some 'me' time in there so you don't go crazy!
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    1577 days ago
  • KANOE10
    Lovely blog. I sm glad you found joy and a new career.

    1577 days ago
    Maintaining through those minefields of busyness, non-exercise, and dream-draining circumstances is quite an accomplishment! Taking time to find and rescue your joy is great! Sharing it with others, so they will remember their joy, is wonderful... you'll be a great coach!
    1577 days ago
    The joy does seem to come and go, but do remember in all the business with the kids that the day will come when they move out of the house, and it will all seem so very long ago. The dailiness of having kids around seems endless, but it really isn't all that long a time.

    The best way to keep something is to give it away. Being a Health Coach sounds like a great way to do that. In helping others you help yourself.
    1577 days ago
    So here you go, a new chapter, a fun transition. Nothing like personal experience to lend weight (ha!) to a strong coaching practice. I wish you the very best! Happy for you too.

    1577 days ago
  • KANOE10
    You will make a great Health Coach. I am glad you found the joy in your life..busy as it is. I empathize with your husband as I am a teacher and feeling the same stress. It is hard to find joy in the common core and its demands.

    You are on a great road and have found your way to happiness.

    1589 days ago
    You are wonderful. You will make a fabulous health coach!

    1590 days ago
  • DALID414
    I swear my 6-pack is hidden too. It's more of a 4 pack, that bottom pair has always been hidden behind a pooch!
    emoticon on making the worthwhile effort to find your joy.

    1590 days ago
    Such an honest blog! Thank you for sharing your journey back to joy! =D
    I live with a teacher, am the daughter of two teachers, and am also a teacher! However, I don't teach public school any more. I feel for your husband's struggles. Perhaps as the family finds joy again, your husband can also find some joy in his profession. You have to live for the one's who really want to be taught.

    Your goal of becoming a Certified Health Coach sounds great! I wish you the best and hope that you can turn this into a fantastic, fulfilling career!

    Keep working, loving, and finding joy everywhere!
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    1590 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/18/2013 11:16:19 AM
    I love your blog. I shows how life can get so busy and truly leave us and our families behind. I think this may be a reason why so many marriages breakdown is the lack of closeness gets lost in the shuffle.

    Although you seem to recognize this and have a plan now in place to change it up and to change up what you are doing for yourself. You should be very proud of what you are doing.
    You have given yourself a challenge and I feel your dedication and conviction in making certain that you do this for you and for your family as well as others.

    Keep up the very hard work as I am sure you will make it.


    Barrie, On Canada
    Eastern Time Zone
    1590 days ago
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