Friday, October 18, 2013
Very late getting in the Pawse this week
It wasn't a very good week all in all. Last weekend I had a depressive episode, the first in a long time which knocked me for six. I really don't feel like taking care of myself when I am in that place, I seek out a lot of comfort food, exercise is the last thing I want to do so I didn't really do very much over the weekend. Yes, I am very annoyed but I am not going to beat myself up about it either, its over and I am looking forward to a better week ahead.
I did lose weight - only 200g - but a loss is a loss and I will take it with gratitude.
This week I really felt things getting on top of me, a combination of work, family and study. I sometimes wonder have I taken too much on but I can't change that now. I have to accept this is the hand I have for the next few months and I have to try and work around it. My health is vital so I have to keep up with the exercise but I need to also remember that its more about food and eat well and look after my diet. If I do it won't matter so much if I need to miss a run to do a paper or go to an extra class.
This week I am going to work on my mental health and get myself back to 100% where that is concerned and just plan my week better so I can fit in all I need to do. I'm also going to be more accountable re food and not have as many treats as I allowed myself this week.