I have had a cold, hard reality check the past 2 weeks since I started this Eat Well, Live Well challenge. I am logging a lot less steps than I think every day, and am not as on point with my fruit and veggie intake as I thought I was. Letting go of tracking has not done well for me. I have started back up and as a baseline, I am eating about 2100 calories a day if I eat like I want, 150- ish grams of carbs and 15 grams of fiber.
My potassium has been pretty low too, which is NOT good considering I run borderline deficient on a good day (via lab work). I get so tired of having to think so much about what I am doing all the time, but I am also not happy with where I am at. SO I must do something about this! At least I have a real picture of why I have gained and maintained the gain so long. I have not been NEAR as active as I used to be, and my diet is not so stellar lately. I THINK I am doing well by simply not eating junk and things I can't tolerate. That is not true for me. I have to be more conscious of getting in the veggies, lower sugar fruits, and lightening up the calories and carbs. Eating those potassium foods again on purpose! I need to cut back on my wine consumption as well! I do drink dry wines but I can always stand to drink less!
I have been here before, at this very same 191# and felt this fat and bloated. I know I can change it, I have before, but I am at a different place in my life right now that just makes it more challenging. A lot has changed since 2009.
I have made a 100% change in my diet due to my food allergies/intolerances and now I spend a LOT more time in the kitchen! I think this is a positive but it does take a lot of time! I cook 100% of my own food, other than the random indulgence or if we go on vacation. We really only eat out less than once a month. I can't really buy any packaged foods anymore so I have to make everything. I thought Gluten was bad to avoid, try being sensitive to corn!! It is literally in everything in some form!!
My job is a lot more stressful. I was doing well back then, minimal stress, I was happy at work. Now we have someone there that just sucks the life out of you and makes you crazy! It is but one person of 10 and I love the other 9, so I am not going to let her and her negative black cloud win. She will leave before I do! The unfortunate thing is that I leave work exhausted. I have let go pretty much of my issues with coworkers. I have to do what I need to do and let the others fail since no one wants to listen to me. I have a fatal flaw...I give a S&*T!
I am just older, and have developed thyroid problems and probably hormonal as well, and I am just plain tired a lot. It is a lot harder for me to get up and out, or to work out late. I used to have no problem going for a run after work. Now I struggle to go to the Y at all.
I need to make small changes to get back to that place where it was easy for me to fit in 5-6 days a week of exercise and at least do SOMETHING most days. I need to ease back into the lower calorie ranges. I am not going to be too restrictive, but if I want to lose I have to restrict some. My low end is going to be 1550, because that is what I estimate my BMR to be, approximately. My high end will be whatever SP gives me for my exercise, or a deficit of 500 a day. I KNOW I burn at least 500 a day. SP Activity tracker shows about that for my steps, plus that doesn't include things like lifting, bending, cooking, cleaning unless my feet move. I do spend a lot of time standing in place but doing things with my arms. I wish I could tolerate arm bands or I would have gotten the Body Bugg like Biggest Loser!
I am going to try to ease back slowly on the calories and ease up on the exercise. I know I will fail if I try to do too much. That is my pattern. I go all out, burn out and quit. I will not do that this time, I will work with what I have...ME! I have to accept my flaws, move on and work with them! The good side is once I get my routine back as "normal" to me, my stubbornness kicks in and makes it hard to lose it!
I feel like I HAVE to do things on certain days...Like get my run in, or do my ST. That routine is back there in my head somewhere..I just need to re-ignite it!
So is my lower calorie food and tracking. I used to do this religiously! And even on a cheat day, I would figure out what I could have not to blow the week! I don't know when I went from that to "Ahh, screw it! I messed up already anyway!" I also have been hearing so much about not counting and listening to your body and eating more. Well that's great if it works for you! I has not for me! My body lies to me all the time!! I also am not active enough yet to make that feasible. Maybe if I get back my solid running plan and weight training...then I might re-visit that idea. I can't also trust my body when it tells me I want things that I don't even like, that would wreck me for a week! McDonalds Cheeseburger and fries! I crave that every time I am sick!! Lies!! That would be the worst thing I could do! SO I have to go with my head for now until it turns around to asking for healthy things!! AND wanting exercise because I KNOW I feel better when I do!
Details of how I am going to accomplish all this are to be determined. Now that I have had my eye-opener, I need to sleep on that and let it come to me.