Friday, October 18, 2013
Tonight, as I sit in front of this computer, wolfie made a visit.
I was just sitting here reading some BBC news, watching some videos and there he was....breathing down my back whispering in my ear. Go to the store and get some black cherry mikes hard lemonaide. You have made it this long with out drinking, you can drink now?????
It has been a while since he made his presence known.
It took only a moment for me to change my thoughts and go into the kitchen and get a big glass and fill it half way with diet cranberry juice and the rest with water. then take a straw and sip it hard thru the straw until it was gone in a flash.
I was full and wolfie disappeared.
I have made it 67 days this time with out alcohol.
Everyday, I wear an aluminum bracelet with the words inscribed on the inside" FU wolfie".
I stole this from belle and her 100 day challenge blog. (I paid belle for it!....i stole the wolfie word)
Wolfie is the voice in your head that tells you to drink...that you need to drink in order to socialize and have fun.etc.
I have only told a few of my friends that "I don't drink any more".
It is just easier that way.
Trying to figure out when/how much I was going to drink then there was the driving and drinking even if it was only 3 blocks home...don't remember getting home yikes! Did I have enough, do I need to go get some more before the store closes....am I going to make a fool of myself again? I just had had enough of the drama.
enough was enough.
So I quit for good this time.
FU wolfie because I don't drink anymore!