Friday, October 18, 2013
Thanks for listening to me rant and cry last blog. I just needed to get it out of my system once and for all instead of pretending that these things don't bother me, because they actually do. We decided to wait another year to try for baby #2. If trying sends me into a two week depression of sorts, I am obviously not ready.
PIano lessons have been really theraputic for me. It gives me a musical outlet that doesn't rely on my abs and I'm actually good at it when I sit down and try. Without going into "all the things" I feel like I'm really making some important mental breakthroughs and doing some much needed personal growth.
Exercising has finally been more consistent. I don't get in an "ideal" workout everyday, but everyday I do something physical and am slowly incorporating more ab work. It's tough, because I still can't feel my lower abs at will yet until I do an exercise that makes them hurt. My back and abs are currently in a lot of pain, but I suppose that's to be expected when trying to get everything to function as it should again. I can finally finish a full turbo jam video again!!! (I was having trouble doing all the leg lifts and bigger jumps. . . more ab work that a person doesn't even realize.)
Eating has been better too. More healthy choices more of the time and I rarely eat until I'm over full anymore, which is a huge accomplishment. I want to try green smoothies out, so we'll see how that goes. My goal is to feel good about myself when I'm on the beach after Christmas. I'd also like to fit into a goal dress from before that has some stretch and forgiveness, so it might be doable.