Friday, October 18, 2013
Today I turned 42. I look back at the last year heck the last two years. I have wasted time. I have wasted so much. I haven't taken care of myself and haven't put in the effort to improve myself. I have no one to blame. It is my fault. I have had so many false starts and gave up. So yes I am disappointed and angry with myself.
I looked in the mirror this morning and saw a dead person. If I don't change my habits and get healthy then that is where I am headed. So I am getting ready to look in the mirror again and I am planning to see a fighter. This is my last chance. I am tired of letting myself down, of being weak, of giving up, of making excuses. I need to fight and win. Make positive changes. I want to feel good. I haven't done that in a long time.
In 365 days from now I better see a big change. So step by step, frustration by frustration I am going to win this time. I have to. There is no choice and no other options.
I have to do this for me.