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So angry right now...

Thursday, October 17, 2013

I am so angry right now… I can’t explain how it feels. To constantly be mocked by a person that I love, to never be able to ask a single question without an argument. To always feel like I am lonely in my relationship with my boyfriend. I have no idea how to feel. All I know is, I feel like I am shaking and frustrated real bad! All I want is to be friends with my boyfriend to get along… to share my life and laughter… I only cry now out of anger, because I want to express it through violence. I know it’s not right…but it’s exactly how I feel.

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GINGERRA1980 10/18/2013 1:45PM

    Thank you ladies for the love.... emoticon

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LOFLLAMA 10/18/2013 1:41PM

  Wow! Sorry, but I think it's time for him to go. Love isn't supposed to be like that.

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SUEPERWOMAN 10/18/2013 1:08PM

I hate when this happens! You have my full support. I am sorry you are hurting.

Love, Ginger

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A_SIZE6 10/18/2013 12:59PM

    Dear Ginger
I am sorry you are dealing with this. I have been there with my ex husband. I've had my share of headache moments. this is not okay. I will keep you in my prayers

Comment edited on: 10/18/2013 1:01:35 PM

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GODSCHILDAMYB 10/18/2013 12:50PM

    Ginger honey, I am so sorry I missed this blog. I hate what is going on with you and I am still here. I am not giving up on you and I am not going to stop praying for you. Hold on tight girl. Things are going to change in the name of Jesus Christ. You are my special friend and I wish I could be with you right now to support you and punch that guy in the nose. It is a good thing I am not there, but I am certainly with you here and I am not leaving. Love you girl, Amy emoticon emoticon emoticon You deserve a blue ribbon sweetheart.

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HEISTHEANSWER 10/18/2013 12:21PM

    So sorry someone would treat you like this. No one deserves this!

Hang in there; you are in my thoughts and prayers.

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DJ4HEALTH 10/18/2013 12:42AM

    This is not love and love would not do that to you. This is control and that is what control does to you. So now you have to decide what to do and remember that you have a little girl that is watching how her mommy is being treated and that is how she will grow up thinking that is the way it is suppose to happen to her. Ball is in your court.

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HANNAHSGRAMMIE 10/17/2013 11:20PM

    I'm sorry you're going through such a tough time. Please let us know how you're doing. You have such a positive, uplifting personality. I hate to see you upset. I'll be praying for you. Please stay strong and PLEASE PLEASE stay with us at SparkPeople.

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GINGERRA1980 10/17/2013 8:52PM

    thank you ladies...i feeellll like i want to be violent but i wont because i wont be so dumb...but i am just so angry that i rather cry than hurt a person...and then of course that is mocked as well... emoticon

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LAURANCE 10/17/2013 8:48PM

  I was in your position for a number of years. I didn't know what was wrong or why he behaved that way. Then he was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. The shrinks didn't tell me what Borderline was, and they just kind of swept things under the rug.

Some years later when I had a computer with high speed internet I Googled Borderline Personality Disorder and learned about it, and then the behavior made sense.

Over time I was able to learn how to respond to the behavior, and over time the behavior finally changed.

But I don't know that anyone else should be expected to have to deal with this. It's what I did because it's what I had to do.

I can sure identify with you! What you are saying is so familar!

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LYNNAZ1 10/17/2013 8:44PM

    Sending encouragement and support to you. I agree with Mommy2Madilyn that violence is not the right choice, and the best thing is to separate yourself from the immediate situation. You had the strength to start positive changes by joining SP, keep it going in all areas of your life.

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MOMMY2MADILYN 10/17/2013 8:31PM

    Ginger, I have tears in my eyes for you right now. You are very brave for admitting how you feel. As I am sure you know, violence is never the right answer. It is important to me to ask, are you ok? Is there anyone you can call or stay with? Please don't continue feeling and living like this. You should feel loved and cared for by your boyfriend, not the anger and frustration you have described. I hope you are ok. Please let me know, send me a spark email or comment on my blog, anything. I wish you the best. emoticon emoticon

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READY4CHANGE81 10/17/2013 8:28PM

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Hope things get better soon!

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