Thursday, October 17, 2013
Today is the day! I've gone a full 3 weeks on transitioning/maintenance and will be starting week 4 today! I still am shocked at how far I've come, how good I feel.
There were a couple of days this week where I wanted desperately to just stay at home and eat carbs (even rather healthy ones like hummus and carrots). Yesterday was one of them. But I didn't do that. I told myself, "No, I will not go down this path!" Instead, I had some tea and then I suited up to run outside. And, as I always find, I felt fantastic after running.
I'm still eating the Medifast meals, probably about 2 - 3 times a day, though I'm sticking to the bars and ready-shakes for now. I haven't canceled my auto-order, but I have greatly reduced it AND selected only the foods that I really, really like.
While a part of me wants to get rid of the MF meals for good, I also realize how easy they are to incorporate around major meals. I'd rather eat MF meals for snacks and stay on plan than to flounder around and not have anything good to eat.
I've been rather proud of how I handle meals. Like last night: lentil soup, salad, a slice of bread. It was good and filling and yummy. I'll need to start spicing up dinner soon, as I'm getting a bit tired of lentil soup (going on 5th day in a row - soup lasts FOREVER!!), but I'm proud. I cooked a meal and made enough for leftovers for the week! I NEVER would have done that a year ago!
A year ago. That's basically where my story begins. It was last September that my dentist told me about my sleep apnea, when I met up with the woman who would be my health coach, when I signed up for Take Shape for Life. What a difference a year makes!
This time last year, I was more preoccupied with the candy aisle than running at night. I spent most of my evenings alone in my apartment with a Papa Murphy's pizza, watching internet videos. I was tired. I was unmotivated. And I was scared. I was scared about the program. I was scared that it wouldn't work.
But it did. And New Me is so happy that Old Me took a chance. Now, every evening has me doing some type of fitness activity, from spin class to running to Zumba. I eat better, have more energy, and sleep better. Oh, yeah, and I look amazing too :)
When I was making the decision at the time, I couldn't wrap my head around where things would end up. I could BARELY imagine myself in size 16 jeans. To think I could get into size 10's (and maybe certain pairs of size 8's)? No way, not in a million lifetimes. My initial goal was to be a size 14! And that was me dreaming big!
So if you are at a point where you are unsure and scared or just not seeing any progress, let me tell you stick with it. Just stick with it and keep going. Because on a day to day basis, you don't see any enormous changes. You don't wake up one morning and lose 110+ pounds. It happens over time. And in a year, BIG changes can happen.
I am a completely different person than I was a year ago. I don't let food control me. I control food. I still enjoy it, but I am the master. I own my life and live it to the fullest. I am healthier and happier than I have ever been.