Thursday, October 17, 2013
The day started off so well, and then came the evening of fatigue and impatience. Two little demons who like to sneak up and knock me off what was already my tiny horse.
I made a conscious effort to eat only good things today, but did not like it one bit. I knew that I was going to be unhappy, and I guess that that was part of the problem. I ate things which I normally like to eat, but because I was forcing myself to eat them it became a displeasure. I dutifully crunched on my carrots for a little sugar rush all the while wishing that I had a chocolate bar instead. This evening I crunched on some more carrots wishing that it was a cookie.
I was in the training centre today, and during lunch I could smell the wonderful aroma of our catered lunch, but refused to touch any of it, as I had packed a healthy sandwich for myself. I normally love my vegetarian sandwich, but couldn't help feeling a little bit of resentment as the waft of stir fry flirted around my nose, causing my tongue to water. I could only satiate my longing with what was by then dry rye bread cushioning fancy mustard, and a poor homemade substitute for protein.
I came home so tired because I did not sleep last night, but I was all set to fit in 30 minutes of light cardio, while the soup was heating, and the lettuce was soaking.
This is where things began to go downhill.
It took a little too long to remove the makeup. I wasn't satisfied with any of the packaged soups in the cupboard. I really wanted a cookie.
It took a little too long to find a non-cream based mushroom soup, and when I did, I found out that the Shiitake mushrooms had to soak for 1 hour before cooking them. "Okay, I'll have some carrots." Done. "Oh I really want that cookie. Okay, just one. Mmmm, that was so good. I still have 40 minutes left for the mushrooms to be ready, I'll have another cookie. Mmmmmmm, know what? Now I've already blown my diet for today, I'll just have another cookie. Yes, that was good. Hmmm. Still have to wait for the mushrooms, and that bag of chips is ready, I'll just have a few. While I'm waiting, I'll watch a little television. Oh now my little bowl of chips is empty, and the timer still hasn't gone off yet for the mushrooms, and now I'm really hungry. Well, there are only a few chips left in the bag, so I might as well just finish."
"Beep, beep, beep!" cried the timer. The mushrooms were finally ready.
So, the soup was ready 30 minutes later, and since my diet rocketed out the window almost 2 hours earlier, I just decided to have a glass of wine with my salad and soup.
Ah, how those pesky demons sneak up on you!
So today was a bust, but tomorrow is a new day. Here's hoping for a better tomorrow.