Wednesday, October 16, 2013
I normally go to bed between 2 and 3AM,, I used to work nights, so I seem to maintain this schedule no matter how hard I'd try to break it,, plus do I REALLY WANT TO?? NOPPPERS !! NOT unless I have a Dr's appt or something else to do in the AM (Sundays, religious meetings,, when I go,,,I need to be UP by 8,,,and when I tie in due to extreme pain,,, by 9:20AM) but, NORMALLY I sleep in til 10 or 11AM. That's about the 8 hrs,,,that's needed for a great weight loss. :)
BUT !! Today has been a HORRID pain day !! Even the IDEA of exercise is hurting me,,,though of course I HAVE TO !!! I have a streak going of 120 mins, though yet,,, LOGICALLY I just realized writing this,,,,, I am NOt a healthy gal,,,so I NEED to REST UP today !!! When I awoke,,,after going to bed about 2AM,,, I woke up at 6:30AM in very deep pain,,, in my feet (of course ! but much worse than the nomal which is wicked any ways, but this time to even have them on the bed was TO MUCH ! IT STILL IS ! Though its now 10:30 PM !) my hips,,, also on firah,,, and my back, neck,, ,felt as if I moved,, they'd SNAP !!! This is just one of those days,,, I WISH I could SLEEP thru it. That'd help soo much !! but, yet ,,,with the pain burning as it is,,,, I just can't,,, I can't get AT ALL comfy.
Yes,,,I am using heat,,, I took out the heat thingie,, that runs under my sheets,,, and so that covers my entire body,,,with the heat at 118F. Still the pain is there,,,and even feels WORSE. Its the FOOLISH arthritis,,,, playing it's own game of FUN !! I am NOT sure why,,, I am normally NOT bothered by weather,,,,though this afternoon its all drizzly,,,,I HAD to go to groc store,,,,i am taking care of my neighbors kitty,,,and she was out of food (WHY DO PEOPLE DO THAT??? She KNEW she had open heart today,,,and had 3 weeks of knowing,, so WHY Didn't SHE TAKE proper care of her??? I DO NOT KNOW !! Than when I was there,,, at the groc store,,, her visa card had NO FUNDS,,, so I ended upped,,,buying HER cat food,,,, GRRRR ! DO NOT WORRY !! She WILL easily with GUILT pay me back,, I am SURE her CIGGIES were WAY more important to her,,, cos she's been STRESSING OUT,,,and KNEW I'd NOT let her cat go hungry,, still I feel ABUSED !) I wish she had ASKED and NOT assumed this.
So yeah,,, I went down to the store,,,but, that's only 3 mins from the house,, so that's NOT bad,,,,though I use my wheelchair,,,and in the cold,,, was NOt fun. It NEEDED to be done. She's (neighbor) has been hurting ALSO ,,,and MAJORLY FREAKING OUT,, so she also didn't take care of the cat box,,,it was aweful,,, the cat box is now cleaned. She also didn't leave enough litter,,,,I ll need to use some of my cats,,, thankfully I have a LG container,,,and do NOT need to go down for that !. I am NOT complaining,, just stating this,,, for she's a LOVELY neighbor,,, and at 78 its NOT easy for her..... and she does KNOW it's NOt easy for me either. I do not know why she did this,,,other than she was wicked stressed out over the open heart,,,who would NOT be??? And her kids (6 of them) are totally ignoring her,,,,I think she's HALLARIOUS,,,and I care very much about her,,as a friend.
So yeah,, that's MY Day,,, full of super pain. Im for those who do not know,,on a super duper pain killer,,,so for me to feeling this,,is simply UNREAL !!! iam also on 8 muscle relaxers a day,,,, so with feeling this,, OUCHERS !! And YES,, the meds do work,,,, on MOST days.
So SORRY Team,,,,I KNOW Iam NOT "letting U down" For I KNOW you DO understand,,,,, thanks !! GOOO DAWGGIES !! And the Losing and disabled TEAM !