Wednesday, October 16, 2013
still moving with p90x. We restarted the program after missing a week so we are wrapping up week 2 (again). All is going well with it besides the weight loss. I'll get there I know it.
I am coming to grip with the fact that I can not fix everything, can not heal everyone, can not make everyone feel better, can not control every situation. As much as i hate to say it i think i have control issues. I have to learn to let things go and move on with me. i can not keep sitting here feeling guilty for moving forward with my life (especially finding time/desire to exercise) while 3 family members are horribly ill. I can not do anymore than is asked for me to do- sitting and wishing i could help more isn't making anyone better. This feeling of guilt has been following me since the accident when I stoped doing P90x back in May. I have to find a way to feel worthy of doing things for myself again.