Wednesday, October 16, 2013
While I managed to avoid getting hooked back into the ongoing family drama yesterday, my conversation with oldest bro unleashed TONS of baggage feelings
He's 18 years older (my mom was married before my dad) and has perspective on the dirt devil whirling around my dad, other big bro and younger sis. He was nice- never attacking or reproachful, supports me, my perspective and my feelings, but alas, did put out the hook.
I bravely, nicely, but emphatically stated that it's time my other big bro stepped up and helped. I've been point person for 25 years. It helped that dh coached me before, during and after the call or my new-found boundary probably would have folded like a house of cards.
The price? When dd and dh went off to softball practice, I binged on - get this- sugar free jello with sugar free cool whip. Ate the cool whip until it was gone and then licked the container clean- YIKES!!!
Made myself stuffed, sick to my stomach and felt like crap, but still gotta see SOME humor & irony in STILL being able to binge on so-called 'safe' foods.