Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Just for fun I ran a report on my weight tracker from back when I first started to now.
I was never patient enough to go it slow. While on track, I was ON TRACK. So instead of the gradual 1-1.5 lbs/week Spark recorded on the straight line, I had rapid 3-4 lbs followed by almost -- not quite -- as rapid gains. Again and again. There's one nice flat stretch of about 8 months -- my fourth pregnancy, when I maintained. I am proud of that more than of the drops.
And here I am, almost three years out from my "I'm going to die if I keep this up" moment and only 35 lbs from where started. And 80 lbs from where I would have been had I been content with a pound a week.
Makes you think, right?
The truth is, I don't know if I would have stayed on track any better had I been going it slow. What if I had only lost 1 lb a week during my good stretches and then put on as much weight as I really did the off times?
Who really knows what would have happened?
So here I am. Back under 300 lbs, under 45 BMI, which felt so good the first time and just feels kind of blah now. Been there done that. Want to say "never again" but I said that last time...and the last time. Read an article recently about one problem with sharing goals being that people congratulate you and you feel like you've accomplished and lose steam for the struggle ahead. Maybe the same is true with internal kudos? My whole adult life I have never been below 270, the morbid obesity line, for more than a week or so at a time. Any time I get there I get very excited and then I backtrack.