I was just so excited about completing a whole month on SP that I'm up bright and early with such enthusiasm and blogging..... Well that could be true, because that's my character, but it's not on this occasion! LOL! A barking dog woke me and now I'm wide awake and wondering!
It is true that today I commence week 5 of this epic journey. The last 4 weeks have gone so slow, yet so quick and I've learnt so much about myself in the process, not only about weightloss but about physical and psychological roadblocks that are blocking my progress. I am addressing each issue as it arises, forming a strategy to get past it and then blogging about it to bring the issue into the light and send the issue on its way out into cyber space and far away from me, so I can move onwards and upwards. I have really appreciated the support and encouragement I have received along the way on this journey from some dedicated SP friends and also those that pop in and read my blog just as I do other people's blogs.
I spend more time on blogs than I ever do on messageboards and I try to spend at least 10 minutes a day giving back to strangers some words of encouragement - I used to just read and respond to current blogs but now I randomly select a page of previous blogs and I look for the person who has not received any comments. Apart from responding to friends blogs when I can I respond to strangers and strangers respond to me. I love that! Just one reply to a blog could change the world versus someone who has spent some time downloading their D&M's on a blog page and no one responds..... so I give my attention to these people. I remember when I first started blogging and those words of encouragement are one of the main things that got me through and are helping me stick to my challenges.
Now about those psychological roadblocks............. I encountered one yesterday that was both physical AND psychological (double whammy!). I wanted to do a November challenge with an SP friend (IAM146POUNDS) which involved completing an workout DVD (titled SHRED) once a day for 30 days. I actually found Level 1 of this program on U Tube and thought I'd test it out so I know what I'm in for. WELL !! I completely gave up after about 3 minutes into the exercise program (I gave up having just completed the warm up exercises!) and then I fell straight into a puddle of horrible self defeat and frustration. I'm so glad this happened because I was able to sit in those emotions and really look at them for what they were. Self defeat is a real 'crushing' feeling.
I went into one of my gardens and took my frustration out on cleaning it up - to my later delight I accomplished much and had a great workout in the process - I also ticked another project off one of my organic gardeners team's lists. Whilst in the wonderful setting of my garden I processed my self defeat. It had flawed me and literally paralyzed me from moving forward. Once I'd processed the feeling I realised that I was trying to achieve something that was out of my league and that I wasn't equipped for, so I just needed to accept that and be happy and grateful with my current progress and results. I thought of my personality of being a high achiever and how many times (particularly when I was younger) I'd reach for the stars only to find that I wasn't equipped to handle it and my self defeat would kick in and I'd bash myself up over it. This is the first time in my life that I saw just how powerful and devastating self defeat is and I now know that if that 'feeling' comes a knocking ever again it can't harm me..... I stared self defeat in the face and tackled it head on! I know I am bigger and better and now BEYOND self defeat.
Self defeat has no place in this healthy mind of mine! So just like Goliath I have conquered and OVERCOME another GIANT! That is HUGE! Self defeat has no stronghold over me anymore - Amen!
Self defeat is only real and will only work against you if you want it to......... other than that it is a lie and an illusion and has no power over you.
So with that said here is the work I put into the garden. I also filled my 240 litre wheelie bin which is not in this photo.
Whilst the big dog (jack russel) and I were attending to the important gardening matters, the little dog (chihuahua foxy x) was keeping her usual behaviour in good form and completely oblivious to the hard work going on around her. This photo has got to be titled "pick me up mummy - I am here to be adored and my feet are touching grass!!".
Unfortunately I spoilt her rotten and there's no changing that now - she thinks she's human and the world is her oyster and I'm never going to burst that bubble because she's just too cute so I just humour her like she humours me!
Have a great day/night today everyone and thanks for sharing my journey and my self discoveries .....