Monday, October 14, 2013
Hi. I am starting yet again. If nothing else I am definitely not a quitter. My hubby took a picture of me over the weekend and he posted it on facebook. When I saw it I got very emotional and deleted it because I didn't want anyone to see me. I do not like the way I look. I keep starting my plan for weight loss but usually after a day or two I eat something unhealthy and then it all goes downhill after that. I have struggled with being an all or nothing personality for a long time. I need to stop. When I eat something unhealthy I need to say its just one thing and forgive myself and stop self sabotaging. I want to weigh 145lbs so much. I want to be healthy for myself, my kids & my hubby. I don't want to miss out on anything because I am physically unable because of my weight or complications from being overweight for too long. I want to be able to be there for my baby daughter when I'm 70 and she's 30. My Grams is 81 and has been overweight for as long as I can remember. This weekend she told me she thought being overweight would never affect her health and she knows now how wrong she was. She has diabetes and has to have insulin shots now. She also has high blood pressure. I don't want that for myself. I need to do this now.