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I want this!

Monday, October 14, 2013

Hi. I am starting yet again. If nothing else I am definitely not a quitter. My hubby took a picture of me over the weekend and he posted it on facebook. When I saw it I got very emotional and deleted it because I didn't want anyone to see me. I do not like the way I look. I keep starting my plan for weight loss but usually after a day or two I eat something unhealthy and then it all goes downhill after that. I have struggled with being an all or nothing personality for a long time. I need to stop. When I eat something unhealthy I need to say its just one thing and forgive myself and stop self sabotaging. I want to weigh 145lbs so much. I want to be healthy for myself, my kids & my hubby. I don't want to miss out on anything because I am physically unable because of my weight or complications from being overweight for too long. I want to be able to be there for my baby daughter when I'm 70 and she's 30. My Grams is 81 and has been overweight for as long as I can remember. This weekend she told me she thought being overweight would never affect her health and she knows now how wrong she was. She has diabetes and has to have insulin shots now. She also has high blood pressure. I don't want that for myself. I need to do this now.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
MESEATURTLE 10/17/2013 11:21PM

    U r feeling it so strong .... U r already on the path of getting there!!!

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ONEKIDSMOM 10/17/2013 10:21PM

    You have great reasons for wanting and needing to take care of you. Now you need to take a page from my book and kick "Polly Perfectionist" to the curb and just do your best... ONE decision at a time. Because you are SO WORTH IT!

Thanks for the friend ad... in you I see me at 40 ish... which is when I caught the bug. And while I regained after the initial loss and had to lose it again... the key is NEVER giving up on ourselves.

In year four of current maintenance now... this could be YOU when your daughter is 20! Because you want to FEEL this good, be this healthy, and love your life. Friending you back, you're a kindred spirit!

- Barb

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CASMA72 10/15/2013 12:03PM

    One day at a time. emoticon Thanks for the support. :)

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NKING1982 10/14/2013 11:13AM

    You can do it! Keep a positive attitude and just keep pushing

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