Monday, October 14, 2013
Things have been going better. I got to run in the Maine Marathon Relay last weekend and had a great time. I was pleased with my time as well. Having family and friends all be able to participate really made all the difference for me. It was great. This races was a nice confidence boost after the difficult half marathon I finished in September.
I also picked up a new pair of running shoes (new brand) that weekend and I am enjoying the difference so far. They fit comfortably and I don't have any strain on my knees at all (well beyond the everyday strain of just getting out there). That plus a lot of other things have come together so that I am feeling good again about my running. I have been exploring some of the training settings on my treadmill at home and found one that is challenging, but not too hard. All of these things are working to help me get back to the place where I enjoy running and want to put the time in. So often I am defeated by my own attitude before I even start out-- I am notorious for setting very ambitious (sometimes unrealistic) goals that bog me down when I can't put the time in for the training and then don't' perform the way I want to when the deadlines come around. And the burden and pressure of "having" to make a certain distance on a given day is challenging when so much of my job is the same way. I don't want to have my running feel like a job either. And I don't like feeling disappointed in my running. I want to be happy that I am even getting out there.
So, I think it is time to rethink how I am setting my goals. I think I am going to set some different ones for next year. This year I thought I really wanted to conquer longer distances-- the half marathon in particular. And I really thought I had a good chance. But I didn't/was not able to/ put the time in training that is needed to really finish that race well. I was able to follow some aspects of my training plan in the beginning but was unable to sustain such an effort over the long run. Therefore, given my current level of commitment, I think sticking to shorter distances will be good for me. There are still plenty of 10K, 5 milers, 10 milers, etc. to keep it interesting and to keep me from feeling like a failure for not finishing with good times for those longer distances. And I think it will be more enjoyable with the time that I do have... not the time I wish I had. And maybe I can find more time in there for my family and other activities besides just running.
The training plan guilt is a hard one for me. I have always subscribed to the motto that if I am going to do something I want to do it well, otherwise I don't want to do it at all. Which is why the longer distances are hard for me because I don't have the time or the drive to do those well... even though I think I still want to be able to say that I have done that. I guess we can't have it all. Do some things and do them well.
So far so good for now. TTFN.