Monday, October 14, 2013
Sometimes, that is exactly what I need.
It has been almost 2 weeks since I have been on Spark. Not because I didn't want to be here but because I had no mental energy to be here.
Depression sucks; plain and simple.
I knew I was overeating. I knew I wasn't tracking. I knew I wasn't getting in just the bare minimum of exercise. I wasn't reading my Sparkmail. I didn't track my goals. I didn't read in my book.
I wish I could find that one person who will notice when I'm not here and text me, (because let's face it, I'm not reading an email either so that wouldn't work). Who will see that I've been absent and give me that swift kick in the butt. Some one who will be stern with me and help me during my depression pits.
I'm thankful that this past episode only lasted 2 weeks.
I am thankful for new beginnings.
I am thankful for a place where I can go that others have "been there, done that".
I am thankful that this hiatus does not define me.
I am thankful that I can still be redeemed.
But please, don't feel scared to give me that swift kick in the buttocks from time to time.