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A Swift Kick in the Buttocks


Monday, October 14, 2013

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Sometimes, that is exactly what I need.

It has been almost 2 weeks since I have been on Spark. Not because I didn't want to be here but because I had no mental energy to be here.

Depression sucks; plain and simple.

I knew I was overeating. I knew I wasn't tracking. I knew I wasn't getting in just the bare minimum of exercise. I wasn't reading my Sparkmail. I didn't track my goals. I didn't read in my book.

Depression sucks.

I wish I could find that one person who will notice when I'm not here and text me, (because let's face it, I'm not reading an email either so that wouldn't work). Who will see that I've been absent and give me that swift kick in the butt. Some one who will be stern with me and help me during my depression pits.

I'm thankful that this past episode only lasted 2 weeks.

I am thankful for new beginnings.

I am thankful for a place where I can go that others have "been there, done that".

I am thankful that this hiatus does not define me.

I am thankful that I can still be redeemed.

But please, don't feel scared to give me that swift kick in the buttocks from time to time.

Seriously.

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Member Comments About This Blog Post:
URBANAUDREYE 10/15/2013 10:22PM

    I more than likely would have noticed you gone MIA, but I've been pretty AWOL myself. Had the baby last week so this is only the second time I've managed to get on the computer in the past 11 days.

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DELIA38961 10/14/2013 10:30PM

    you are right depression does suck emoticon my last episode was in august and it lasted all month so I know exactly how you feel...im glad you feel better now emoticon

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ELIZABETHBECK1 10/14/2013 10:26PM

    I did get dressed today. I showered around 3pm. Sigh. But at least I DID get dressed today, right? Starting back on Trazadone tonight

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STEVEN_D 10/14/2013 8:14AM

    Depression does suck. My most recent bout I have turned inward on myself and was really able to use that burdening energy as physical energy to get out and move. I don't know how or why, it just happened, like i turned it to personal anger and I could then burn it off. Swift kicks I once wanted to motivate me in college, and I think mine was from parents. It helps to have an accountability friend, but you have to be willing to respond. Hope you are pushing thru and getting things done this week.

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SUPER_ACE115 10/14/2013 5:36AM

    emoticon At least it was only 2 weeks. Hopefully next time it will be less time. Just don't give up. It's not about falling... be worried when you fall and don't get back up. emoticon emoticon

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