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Sunday, October 13, 2013

Back below 200. I'm ready to get out of the 190's.

I cancelled my gym membership - I signed up at a gym about 25 miles from home, thinking it would be easy to just stop in on my way to or from work. But the truth is, I'm exhausted after work , I sleep in until I have to go to work because I *need* sleep to help stay on track, and I have a treadmill at home that I *could* use if I wanted to. I signed up 2 months ago and went to the gym only 5-6 times. I was really fired up at first because of the pool but after going a few times...it's nasty, the changing rooms are nasty, showers are disgusting...things that I didn't pay close attention to when I toured the gym.

I signed up for WW Online. NOT because it's WW, but because I really do like their food and activity tracker far more than SP and MFP trackers and the tracking is my biggest pitfall. I like that it keeps me in a low-calorie range daily, but allows me to have weekly points IF I need them. The lessons I've learned from the past is that I won't lose weight if I use up all of my weekly points and fitness points that I earn. To be effective, I need to NOT use all of my points. I know that. I'm doing my best not to see those points as "ice cream", "potato chips", etc...rather just for those particular days that I am exhausted and tired and don't feel like making dinner, or didn't take lunch to work, and I may go over my calories a bit. I don't know. I'd been considering this for a long time. I'm not a WW devotee...I just like the app. We'll see how it goes.

Work is going ok. It is what it is. One of the doctors is gone for a bit, so I've been busier. But when he comes back, I know I'll go back to being only steady, maybe even slow now that we're heading into the winter months. I'd be happy being very, very busy every day...the owners seem to be ok with just steady. They've even talked about hiring another doctor, which is mind-boggling considering that there are many days on end that we don't see enough clients. But, I guess that is not my problem and I'll just go with whatever they decide.

I'm still struggling with not feeling fulfilled, although some days I think it's just a reflection of my life overall: I'm sick of the town I live in and want to move, hubby is working crazy hours until his promotion, I drive 45-50 minutes each direction every day to work, I often feel unpopular at work (one of the other doctors is SUPER, SUPER sweet and everyone just LOVES her and I constantly see tiny reminders of that that just wear on me), I never feel like we have enough money, my infertility struggles, etc. I've actually considered seeing a therapist to help learn how to just cope. I hate that 33 years of my life have passed and I can never just feel happy and complete, mostly because I don't know how. We'll see. Therapists are so expensive! I'll have to call my insurance company to see what they cover.

Shandi is doing ok with her chemo. Yesterday she had chemo and her Zoledronic acid, which was a bit too much for her, unfortunately. She was really in the dumps all night but is doing fine now.

Hoping to make some good strides this week.
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CONFUSEDBIRD 10/17/2013 12:47PM

    Sounds like you are in a much better place lately! Things are working themselves or going back to what worked in the past.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 10/14/2013 9:23PM

    OMG - the gym sounds gaggy - practically a cesspool. With MRSA being what it is I am not into places like this.

Lots of people are very successful on WW. I have a lot of their cookbooks.

We were at the vets on Friday. It's an animal hospital and sometimes the place is packed and sometimes it's empty so I assume that most of them are like that. I love seeing all the animals come in. Very interesting. Friday was BIG dog day. One huge guy brought in his huge Great Dane and Newfoundland. Now there is a food bill!! The Great Dane wanted to play and the guy nearly had his arm socket jerked out. Another guy had what my husband was sure was a rottweiner. LOL. You talk about a strange looking dog but cute in a odd way. The nice thing is that almost all the dogs are friendly.

I used to have a commute that long to work every day and it sucked. I think it will help when your husband is around more because you don't get to see him much and all you both do is work right now. Hang in there.

I'm glad Shandi bounced back so soon. I'm sure that preys on your mind as well.

I hope you have a good week. Congratulations on the weight loss. Excellent!

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PHEBESS 10/14/2013 4:57AM

    First, BIG congrats on getting down into the 190s!!!!! THAT is a MAJOR achievement! (I know firsthand how major it is!)

Second - your insurance should pay for counseling, most do. It can help a lot. Alternatively, there usually is a community mental health center available in most towns. If you can't find them in the phone book, call your local crisis center, they have all that referral info.

Last - I have a friend who works for an insurance co., assessing people and referring them to counseling. She said that when she makes the assessment, if the person cries on the phone she is allowed to approve more time in counselling (more sessions) than if the person doesn't cry. So, if you have to get some kind of assessment like that, keep in mind that you need to cry to get okayed.

(True - but funny, isn't it?)

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