Sunday, October 13, 2013
This seems like a simple question on the surface. I thought I'd long since given myself permission to feel any and every sort of human feeling imaginable.
My theory has always been that if I feeling is recognized it could be handled. So, if it was a small and mean feeling that was obviously beneath me, I would just let it go. Or, if it was a feeling that led to a deeper understanding of an issue, then recognizing it would give me additional information.
My emotional self is much sneakier than that. I spent a few hours of precious free time trying to make something that wasn't crucial - work. At the end of it I realized that I am sometimes lonesome - not quite sure what to do with myself - and miss my son. So, trying to make my computer do something was just a distraction. Apparently, letting children go isn't as simple as the immediate pain (or joy) that you might feel when they physically leave.
It's all good though. I believe that time for contemplation is needed. Solitude is needed.
..and as so many people have suggested, meditation is a great idea.