Things are weighing on my mind. Finishing taxes today (major). Finishing a set of papers to grade (important). Missing two meetings because I need to stay home and do these things (not great). House needs cleaning. Garden needs work putting it to bed for the winter and deciding what's going to work for the late market weeks through November (maybe we won't have much). New greenhouse needs planting, but the electric and water aren't set up yet (worrisome).
I try not to think about all of this at once. I am worrying about taxes first, since I need to wrap that up today. I think that's half the weight right there. Tomorrow I may be exhausted, but I'll feel better.
And I did lose 1.2 pounds this week, and 1.75 inches. Not a lot, but steady progress. It makes sense. I was losing an average of 2 pounds a week on my last go 'round, but I was also doing a lot of cardio - an extra hour on M-W and another hour or two on T-Th. Which would be about another 3500 calories. But my purpose this time is to do things more like I'm going to be able to maintain, so a one-pound loss, provided it doesn't stop, is probably ideal.
I just have to get used to the idea that it's going to take a very long time to reach my goal. Twice as long as I had hoped. But you know what? I was off plan for a year. That seemed to go by pretty quickly. So maybe in a year I will have lost 50 pounds and still have 25 to go, which will take another six months.
What else do I have but time? 18 months is going to go by one way or another, as long as I'm still breathing. I can spend 18 months getting healthier and stronger and thinner. And once that's over, I'm much more likely to be able to stay there this time.
Or I can spend the next 18 months whining and eating and sitting on my a$$, getting fatter and weaker and experiencing my first round of major health degradation. That's a choice we all make, every day.
One pound down this week. Very good.
Note -- not that I think this 51-year-old body is going to look like those girls, but it's going to look dayam good and I liked the sayings on the photos. :)